>>41542177 (OP)
pretty great, you get to be unconditionally you and regressing back to before all the bad stuff happened. Meanwhile every need is being met. Your high brain starts to just like, turn off. its very blissful
the problem is afterwards, where you are very aware of what you've done, that you debased yourself in a way most people find despicable, and if people knew a large amount of people would never talk to you again.