>>41578910 (OP)
>I am a cis male but I almost exclusively fap to the idea of me having a vagina and getting fucked in it. How do I rid myself of this curse?
I mean, it's normal to be curious about and aroused by that sort of thing. I went through that phase too, at a time in my life when I'd been playing as girl characters in MMOs and was flirting with the idea of what it would be like to take on a feminine identity. (But this mostly wasn't done back then)
I'd been aroused by the idea of dressing up in girl outfits/etc. since I was a little boy, I think because I was jealous of my sister who was about the same age as me but was pretty and got more attention lavished on her, made friends easier, etc. I'd always secretly wanted to have my own Barbies to play dress-up with, also. In a lot of ways I began to feel at this later point in my teenage years that I really ought to have been a girl.
But actually I'm a man and I got over it lol. I'm lucky that I was more of the "gender non-conforming is ok" libtard generation, and that I was widely read enough to be aware that "normalcy" in any given year is always a narrow and parochial idea; so I never felt seriously troubled about my gender, I just knew I had a real fascination with femaleness.
I should admit, though, that a certain mental aversion to being gay (bro culture) coupled with an understanding that sexuality is fluid and on a spectrum (obama era libtard) meant that when I found myself strangely aroused by "sissy hypno" etc., I would just intentionally avoid it because I knew I could always become more gay than I am now. And I never took any psychedelic drugs.
