>>41645800
Thanks for the reply. I finally fell asleep after some... activities.
I would say its distressing because I remember what I used to want and how I never obtained it. I dated certain people, but I just didnt have the sex drive or the maturity with which to develop a meaningful relationship and they broke it off because I couldnt deliver.
But I have changed and my vision has changed and that is fine by me. As far as being open to romance, im not saying its a surefire way, but if I want something bad enough where it feels its destined, would it not follow that not only would I do everything in my power to obtain it subconsciously and, if I accept it, consciously but certain instincts and faculties would open up to me (and they have) if it truly were an inevitable fate?
What is romance? Is it a feeling or is it gestures to show affection? I think the two have to be inextricably unified, otherwise its inauthentic romance in the absence of the feeling and unrealized romance without the gesture. I dont want to say sex is the only contributing factor to a healthy relationship but I cant imagine its trivial either. For me right now it forms the bedrock of any romantic relationship.