>be me
>cynical, lonely, isolated and alienated, women find me disgusting
>think of my self as a cold monster
>unirocally help troubled strangers by instinct without expecting anything in return

Books for this feel?

>>24480963 (OP)
Kys

>>24480966
That's not a book now is it?

any book about a narcissist without an ounce of self awareness

>>24480966
I'm already dead inside, only books give me a will to live.

>>24480963 (OP)
You are not alone anon. I feel similarly to you at times.

>>24480963 (OP)
It sounds like you're quite attached to your own negativity, and the idea that you are secretly a great person even though no one else can see it. You're probably a narcissist. I'd suggest you read some sort of Buddhist literature, but you'd probably become even more insufferable. Have you considered that if you started working out and got some sunlight that maybe you wouldn't be such a sack of shit and that maybe your own sense of self-importance would be slightly justified?

>>24480963 (OP)
I think I kind of know how you feel.
Just read basic shit that is recommended here. Most people here are like this so most people have the same taste anyways.
My favorites are Thomas Bernhard, Cioran, Houellebecq, Nabokov. Bernhard and Cioran may fit your description pretty well. But they will most likely just romanticize your melancholy and wont solve anything.

>>24480963 (OP)
Wake up and realize you’re a little faggot who’s completely self-absorbed and obsessed and then you can begin to change
>Books for this feel?
Chronicles of Narnia or some other children’s book

Notes from Underground.