>>24569466It's not about word count.
It's that I start deeply disliking basically everything about the story after working on it for months and months. Usually because I realize it's irredeemable and boring. Not worth a reader's time. Certainly not worth anyone's money.
Stop writing all together for a month out of utter disgust with myself for a number of reasons.
Spiral into depression and self hate for a few weeks.
Then after 2 or so months of that have the impulse to write a book length story again.
To be fair, my writing is quite shit and shouldn't actually be inflicted on others. I don't know why I bother to write. It's just short term self satisfaction only to feel like I wasted a massive amount of time and effort for nothing later.
Also I don't write every day. I binge write on my days off from work. Usually 2000-5000 or so words a week. I do minor edits during the work week, maybe adding in a few sentences to a scene I am working on, but I don't get much done on work days to be totally honest.
I tried the every day thing and the results were utterly shit. Like the quality and quantity of writing were both abysmal on my work days, so it just meant taking writing time away from my non-work days to fix all the broken shit before getting properly locked in to writing.
Eventually I got tired of fixing shit that wasn't worth salvaging and quit that project too.
What is even the point though?
What the fuck would I do even if I got it to book?
I can't even pay people to read my shit.
I must be mentally ill to keep this futile hobby that ultimately just makes me irritated and angry at myself.