Who should I read if I started to be exposed to pornography at a very young age, quickly moved into the most degenerate and disturbing of pornography and hence had my sexuality tainted by such revolting things and ultimately my soul as well?
When I read Bataille I recoil in horror, not because of the offensiveness of the material but because it feels like it originated from the darkest depths of my soul that I have been trying to deny for so long. No matter how much chastity and purity I practice it seems to always be there and I'm not just talking about sexuality here but also a mean cruelty, the horror of corruption, of tragedy and total despair.
I feel like in the process of consuming the degenerate media I consumed, mostly Japanese media, I was raping truth, beauty, sacredness and sanctity whilst having my throat slit.

can't be that bad as long as you're not into NTR and BBC

>>24565938 (OP)
I understand what you’re going through. Read Ephesians through Revelation, repeat.