>>24619638 (OP) The ideal trajectory is a youth of swashbuckling, rabble-rousing, rough-housing, drugs, and degeneracy (this is research) followed by middle age of sprititual austerity (this is the work itself).
>>24620444 Oh. My screen is in washed out by the sun and I'm coming down off poppy tea. I'm sorry. On inspection that floor looks wretched. Completely uneven. No doubt wobbling and clacking together as you mince your way to the chappal for Vigils.
I like weird books made by weird people. To be "Great" is some undefined bullshit. Who cares ? Not like they are going to invite you to Joe Rogan podcasts to say "he is one of the greats". Who cares. Live your life, write also, you win.