I just finished Harlot's Ghost by Norman Mailer. I don't know if his idea of Alpha and Omega is based on any real psychology, but out of all the philosophy and theology I've read, it's the only thing that makes sense. It has always felt like there are two different people in my mind fighting for control. I also agree with his description of narcissism. I've never been able to love or hate another person because I used it up on myself. When I read Stendhal, Dostoevsky and Nietzsche I thought there were some great ideas, but nothing like a profound revelation Mailer caused in me. Where should I go from here? I don't think novels are doing me much good. I would prefer to read something non-fiction. I already tried Plato, Aristotle, Lucretius, Schopenhauer, Kant and a bunch of Christian doctrine. I've avoided Frued because everything I heard sounded nonsensical. Is Jung any good? Or Epicurus? I've heard many interesting things about him. Would it be pointless after Lucretius? I feel like I'm wasting my life and need to discover my identity before I die. There's not enough time to read everything. I have no clue where to start with psychology and I'm not even sure it's any different than philosophy. Seems like the same thing under a different name. Science vs. metaphysics.