I don't WANT to be a doomer. I don't want to feel like this. I've made poor choices in my own life i'm sure, but now do any good choices really remain? What exactly am i living for?

>Hedonism doesn't interest me
>Being pussy whipped by a mid girl doesn't interest me
>I won't settle for a girl whos fat, who will get fat, or non white
>My race is dying
>Everything is fake, everyones deracinated, nothing feels like home its all one giant strip mall
>my politics serve to alienate me, i.e. I don't get along with normies I find their conversations inane
>modern culture is so foreign to me I don't care for fast living and individualistic pursuits sports the latest shit tv show written the wrong people
>go into any shop and hardly anyone looks like me, everything is atomized consumerism
>not religious but if you go to church it feels fake and theres somalians with 10 kids
>Age 27 I don't have any real skills (this ones on me)
>Age 27 my opportunity to marry a decent girl young is more or less expired
>Managed to make money doing Entreprenurial stuff, but i've completely burned out from that given all the above
>Even if i did have real skills, what exactly am i working for? for a half fat bitch? who nags and has a body count surpassing my own? Like what would I be working for?
I seriously question, WHAT am I living for?

What do we as young men (older every day)fucking do? I won't cap, fr, I'm so fucking lost.

Forgot to mention, you can't even find young women who aren't beat down by life these days. They don't exist. It's crazy. Like young girls age 18-25 don't fucking exist. It's fucking absurd. Guess i have to cold approach them all the time every day while making a whole business while working out and keeping healthy while sustaining myself monetarily while being crushingly atomized.

I'm almost at my limit. I really don't have the strength for this world.

>>507459594 (OP)
>I seriously question, WHAT am I living for?
Blackest of the blackpills: The purpose of life is to suffer. Not for some spiritual growth bullshit or whatever, just suffering. Imagine yourself as the monkey in one of those torture videos that get posted here occasionally. That's human existence, and death won't set you free.
You are here forever.

>>507459594 (OP)
>I seriously question, WHAT am I living for?
to pay pensions and healthcare for oxygen wasting boomers
to pay for nigger and pajeet illegals gibs
to reproduce, according to your primal biological urge
>What do we as young men (older every day)fucking do?
simply exist and consooom, if you manage to have fun during the ride it's better for your mental health

when it got to
>just do ALL of this bro then MAYBE girls wont recoil in horror at you
>just do ALL of this and then MAYBE the automatic HR AI script will tell the little airhead slut to call you back for chance at 2-3 humiliation rituals (job interviews)
>now that you have done the above, give over half to the government so we can ship in more brownlets to replace you and give the other half to the girl
like, uhhhh no?

>>507460570
Then why am I having so much fun? I don't feel like I'm lying to myself, though it is a possibility.

>>507459594 (OP)
Try surfing or something. I understand this is retarded but I mean it. Try focusing more on the experience of life rather than the 'state' of it. Literally search for fun. Life is about its experience, not checking off a bunch of boxes like 'Got GF with body count less than 3'.

>>507460570
Is this our punishment for being a misstep in evolution and not living in touch with mother nature? Are we born cursed? Some people seem happy. It wasn't always this way. Why us?

>>507459594 (OP)
it doesnt have to be all doom and gloom. you can go the absurdist route. on some joker shit. it’s nothing new though man just look at fight club. that was joaquin phoenix joker for millenials

>>507462515
you mean pumping our brain full of synthetic chemicals and using a device to pump more exogenous, arguably unnuatural, levels of dopamine constantly into our brains fucked generations of us up?

>>507462650
Yeah. Polluting the planet at a massive scale too. It's just all bad and will only get worse.

>>507462856
magnesium is drained from soil due to how we use patches of land for farming. GMO veg and fruit to look ‘prettier’ but fewer good nutrients. then unregulated supplement companies (anyone can start one in places like the US as it isn’t FDA regulated) selling us sawdust in capsules telling us it’ll cure everything. presciption drugs for symptoms stemming from the above, then more drugs to treat symptoms from the prescription drugs.
we have been poisoned for years but not just with what we put in our bodies but our eyes too. it’s a shame fitness now has this “self improving incel” shit attached to it now because i whole heartedly want people to get into HEALTHY fitness and self improvement and nutrition. fucking grifters on the internet selling us SARMS like that’s any better!

>>507462384
The system wouldn't work if people couldn't cope and stopped willing participation. Do you watch movies or indulge in some vidya from time to time? That's escapism. Why are you wasting time on an anime image board? Get creative and imagine what your existence would look like if you had omnipotence. I dare say it would be vastly different from your current life.
Now imagine your next 10 incarnations as a chick in Somalia
>>507462515
Nature is built on suffering and part of the matrix - a giant slaughterhouse. Every era has its own horrors, and life just never stops throwing shit in your face. Some people cope and believe it's punishment, but what are we learning when our minds are wiped and we are too busy surviving for any serious reflection? What if god or whatever is simply the most demonic piece of shit you could imagine? Like a pubescent teen who puts npcs on flames in GTA because it's funny

>>507464283
if you wanna go that route of “everything is God” then yeah he was that teenage kid burning ants. he was you. i am him, and we have capacity for evil so we choose