>>507881972 (OP)It gives me the ick especially when its over and I feel dirty. The feeling doesnt pass away.
you think you feel like chad, you dont, you feel unclean and you have to wait for the feeling to pass.
You dont feel loved, you dont feel chad, you feel sick. it is the male version of the ick.
I just want to run away as fast as possible, not in a car but on foot, into the woods or somewhere no one can see me.