>>508155229 (OP)I think something is wrong with my brain. I feel like I have alzheimers every time I get behind the wheel. All the rules go out the window, my brain melts down at intersections and I go when I feel it's appropriate. I used to be a lot better and confident when I was driving in my early 20s. I'm barely over 30. I've been through quite a bit of trauma over the past 10 or so years and I feel like it's fucked up my brain chemistry completely. I'm not alive anymore. I'm a vessel like the car I drive every day. I've pretty much had the most important people in my life taken away from me one after the other. I feel like I should talk to a shrink or something but being a jewish racket makes me feel even worse about it given that would be my only outlet. I might possibly and unironically need some fucking medication and a deep reevaluation. I run on auto-pilot everyday just to survive. I haven't felt human emotions in years.
Sorry for the gay faggot rambling blog post btw.