>>508715804 (OP)Hope you're joking anon.
Please don't do it.
I did try once after a long term relationship failed, and woke up in the ICU, tried to OD. Fell down a flight of concrete stairs, had a ton of injuries, they thought I was gonna be a vegetable. Was actually dead for a few minutes. Survived.
Believe me I thought when I came to "can't even kill myself correctly I'm a total failure."
Please don't do it bro. Life goes on even after hardship, people leave. It's the way it is, hit the gym, hang out with your friends, please hold on and keep pressing forward.
God loves you, please keep going