>>509061029This is ignorance, dude. God loves you and isn't going to hurt you if you don't repent. It's more useful to think of it in terms of "am I living my life preparing to face pure unconditional love and when I face Him, how will I experience it?"
If you don't prepare yourself, you may feel immense shame and guilt.
At least educate yourself first, talk to an orthodox priest. Good luck, anon. I hope you will stop being a faggot soon.