My dad's the only person I have left in my life. He's a bit of a narcissist and a gaslighter but the thought of him dying and me being absolutely alone in this world really made me feel some type of way. I've been tired of living for some 15 years or so now. This life is really painful.
>>509184726 (OP)Well nobody blames you for wanting to leave it. It’s shit. But it sounds like your dad at least wants you around. So do that until you can’t before you kill yourself
>>509184726 (OP)Do something scary, meet other people. Tell them the situation of why you want to meet new people
>>509184726 (OP)Its hard. Just gets harder with age. Try buddhism, helped me digest lonely and ebil world
why people gaslight though there is a bit to unpack.
I'm going to apply for assisted suicide soon guys
Im tired of eating sleeping hoping and repeating
>>509184726 (OP)Don’t worry about it anon
For as long as he is here, cherish him
You’re about to be the Tip of the spear Anon …
Get ready to walk point.
Find a kind average woman and have a family, or adjust and Observe the great happenings.
>>509184726 (OP)the anticipation of the pain is oftentimes worse than the actual pain itself. you'll be alright.
>>509184726 (OP)Sounds like me. Found out my Dad has terminal cancer this year. Not sure I will last long after he goes.
