>>509199295Same, I know why sorta... but I am always suspect of myself!
I've been wanting to do it for almost two decades now, actually pretty much, family is always the excuse but I am suspect of my motives.
I've been thinking lately to all the close calls, and one of those remembering when I got electricuted as a child and wondering why did I bargen so hard to let go so I can survive, I couldn't let go of the wires... why did I bargen for life, so I ak suspect of my motives today because it's not adding up, I mean twenty years almost of wanting to die and nothing, am I lying in part to myself... hm!