>>509235189 (OP)That would require day-labor.
They still haven’t matured enough to realize manifesting services and goods makes you feel good.
Difficulty balancing self-actualization with how intricate everything in this world is.
It’s kind of being suspended in this desire to be the main character, not realizing simply following through with your own hobbies and learning positive things about the town and being able to bring them up makes you interesting.
Once you start thinking of cities as just where enough groups and businesses congregate to give you a chance to capitalize on your passion by turning it into a service, you start wondering about all the opportunities people paying lower taxes in the countryside get to do, all that wood can be carved into artistic expressions while you work on site. I know an arborist that has his own vineyard and vegetable and flower patch with gourds and tomatoes, everyone’s free to use the shop and it pays decently. If your a New Yorker, Niagara might not seem appealing, but then you see them actually make artistic pieces of longevity and beauty. You’ll have to lose your fear an annoyance of mosquitos, spiders, and bugs though, they are everywhere.