>>509405167 (OP)Based emotionally weak retard who fell for women's manipulation and emotionally invested in a narcissist.
She was a loser and used you to elevate herself. You are now her bitch. Deep down, you both know you have no one to blame but yourself, that is why you only fantasize about gut punching but you never will, because you know that'd make you the loser.
You don't know what to do, so you're just going to take it and seethe. I know what your answer is, so you can emotionally detach and move on with your head held high, but this is not the forum to provide that advice. All I can say is, get help asap, a lot of people spend their entire lives feeling as miserable as you do and it only gets worse when there are kids (suddenly, you are not their anchor but the kids are, so what use do they have of you anymore, that is when the real pain starts)