>>509708699 (OP)safe travels OP
btw if you are considering suicide please reconsider, you'll just have to do it over but it'll be harder the next time around.
existing at this moment in history is a great privilege bc we are the ones who witness the collapse and can help build what comes next. if you kys yourself then you'll miss out on the best chance any soul will ever have to influence the course of history, all you have to do is stay alive for another few months or years at most
wouldn't it suck to die and then get to the other side and realize you missed out on a huge opportunity? it would be like throwing away a lottery ticket.
either way OP, go with God.