>>509863329 (OP)The fact that you even ASKED this question (i assume unironically), then you are already lost beyond all reason.
What the fuck is wrong with you? Is that what your ancestors and forefathers toiled and died for? Your entire family tree, a lineage of hardworking men, build families with their bare hands, worked hard, survived through economic and political bullshit, the Bosnian war, and for what?
Imagine if you could speak with your grandfather and forefathers right now. What would their reaction be from having a 5min conversation with you? Could they even conceive of the absolute degeneracy you wrote just now, on an anonymous image board? Do you think you would see their pride?
No. All you would see is the warm, heartfelt smile of your grandfather--who rarely smiled--feeling that warmth slowly fade away from his weathered, rough face. His pride, and stoic joy, replaced with disgust, anger, and sheer disappointment, as you watch that rare smile on his face slowly warm into a furrowed brow and grimace of his lips.
He wouldn't even say a word. He would close his eyes, then turn his back towards you. Not a single word, as he walks away back into whatever realm our souls go. He would walk away from you with his back turned because he would think that he has found his "hell", where he sees his lineage turn to such a failure.
The endless dream of pride, resilience, and strength that has flown through the veins of your forefathers, did not grow into the next generation--you--that surpassed them all, but instead turned into a pathetic whimper that died and washed away in the gutters of a dark and hollowed street.
Do better.