>>510289340 (OP)I've never had a decent relationship.
First gf was ugly and physically abusive.
Second gf was super hot and just a bad influences, plus pretty certain she was cheating on me.
Third gf was cute, little bit older than me, but she was very hot/cold. Relationship was volatile as hell. When it ended, I was an absolute mess. Depressed for years. Thought I ruined it with the one.
Years later she gets back in touch and admits she was actually just cheating on me the entire time...
Who the fuck am I supposed to be in a relationship with exactly?
Oh, I'm also poor for my age and barely making ends meet. High skilled, but too old to climb in the corporate world now, so that's out.