you know, i’ve come to understand myself—through years of restless nights, frantic google image searches, and whispered prayers in seven languages—as a paranoid pacifist humanitarian cosmopolitan citizen of the world, which is a long way of saying i don’t belong anywhere and yet feel responsible for everything.
and yes, while that may sound melodramatic, try meditating in hindi one morning, reciting passages from the quran in the afternoon, attending a charismatic christian revival service on sunday, lighting a yahrzeit candle for a jewish holiday you only half-remember, and then top it all off with a reread of the communist manifesto while shorting defense stocks on your phone before bed, see how centered you feel, how coherent your identity remains when you’re simultaneously anti-war, anti-capitalist, anti-fascist, anti-clergy, anti-social-media, and yet weirdly into vintage lenin posters and artisanal incense, the kind that smells like dissent and patchouli, and through it all, you’re scrolling—always scrolling—because you’re deeply and profoundly concerned about the ongoing humanitarian catastrophe in gaza, which you believe, with every fiber of your being, constitutes a genocide, one that must be named, resisted, and mourned, even as you compulsively check the latest theories linking hamas funding to obscure offshore accounts that somehow tie back—through a chain of suspiciously timed real estate deals—to little st. james island and the mysterious, ever-lingering shadow of jeffrey epstein and, somehow, donald trump, which you can’t fully explain but deeplyfeelin your bones, that all of it—the violence, the silence, the disappearances, the islands—is connected, and you, in your infinite spiritual and ideological multiplicity, are uniquely positioned to sense it all, even if no one else quite understands why you wear a kippah with your hammer and sickle hoodie or why you mutter marxist slogans under your breath during mass, because you are, at once, everything and nothing, a citizen of the world and a prisoner of the matrix, and all you really want is peace, but also, if you’re being honest, just a single, unimpeachable truth to cling to before the next algorithm shift.
>>510477152 (OP)Your country breeds murderers with tax payer moneyyy.
Bump, as I feel I can relate to this
