>>510609975 (OP)Woke up after a long night of alone drinking, realized i have a problem. Couldnt stop it for some months after, felt like absolute shit because of it which increased my rate of drinking. Went on a one week bike trip with a friend, he didnt know about it. One evening we got lost and arrived very late at our stay, there was no way i could get a drink at this time and place, got irrational about it, my friend noticed it but didnt bring it up. A couple of days after the vacation he asked me about the evening, somehow i was able to open up. He didnt judge me, offered his help and i went to a selfhelp group in my area. It didnt end there but this was the beginning of it. The urge to drink will never leave you though, it will only get weaker slowly.