>>510678946I grew up in a highly religious family. I was fed the myth that if you are moral and marry a girl and say your vows that they had actual meaning and you would have a happy life together.
Turns out those vows aren't worth the spit used to get them out of your mouth. We're all just apes running on old coding not meant for the modern world. My world was shattered when my wife came home one night and told me she was fucking her boss.
I was like the cartoon character with smoke coming out of their ears because their brain short circuited. I couldn't understand what was happening.
I did all the things I was supposed to do, I was kind to her, always taking her to nice restaurants and being the good husband. Sure we fought but it was always petty stuff and I never let myself get angry or physical. I thought if I just kept doing what I had been told I was supposed to do it would all just work out. But it didn't and I ended up losing everything and sleeping in my car for 6 months until I almost froze to death in the winter.
Never mentally recovered, it's been 20 years and part of me still misses her and I've never been able to date since. For years all I did was ask her why she did it but she couldn't ever give me a good reason. Because neither of us understood our own nature.
I understand things a lot clearer now but it's useless knowledge because it didn't help me make my own life better. Oh well, maybe the asians are right and I'll get another chance in the next life.