>be me
>retard of a father married my mom because she was hot and turns out she has BPD and gave into her shit nature after she had me as a “ball and chain”
>pussy wiped father told me he would work 12 hour shifts even more to avoid going home and dealing with with her and just leaving me with her
>she wouldn’t let me go outside because pedophiles, play with other kids because pedophiles or the kids were bad or something always something with her and would use me like her emotional tampon about how dad “abused her” by avoiding her and mildly fighting back when she went far overboard and when I hit my teenagers years had a sick sexual tension I never noticed because I was utterly isolated and of course I wasn’t allowed to drive and had no motive because their was nothing outside for me
>fast forward I’m 24 realized how fucked over I was and cheated out of a childhood and will have to spend the rest of my life salvaging what little I can with a even harder life than my parents thanks to the kikes and my dad occasionally plays father and tells me to stand up to my mother or try and get away from her and when I point out the simple objective reality the only jobs available are retail jobs and apartments start at 900 dollars he just tells me to figure it out and gets pissed off and calls me a lazy bum
Can someone explain to me why they even bothered especially my “dad”? They both ended up miserable and brought another miserable person into the world to live an even shittier life. My dad still works 12 hour days and lives in the house his dad left for him. “Mom” does absolutely nothing all day but send nasty texts to people over slights that happened years ago and yell at me for cheating her out of her career as a lawyer when she can’t even handle a trip to Walmart without a panic attack anymore. On top of smoking weed, ten dollar cigarettes, and alcohol every day literally every fucking day. Worse is things outright common anymore. Why?

jay reid unironically is like a wizard when it comes to this stuff. his inside experience and ability to articulate it is not comparable to anyone else i've seen. his work has helped me a lot

>>511032799 (OP)
NPC don't really think, they just do.

>>511032799 (OP)
as far as recovering when you were fucked over not having "good enough" parents, it never gets better. you will always have a "hole" there. you will always have emotional regulation issues if triggered the "right way." but it does get more manageable over time. additionally, you will start to feel like you have "abilities" that others seem numb too. for example, often scapegoat children are highly sensitive. this means you often can perceive things that others cannot. this can be a huge advantage. for example, i can basically read people or "see through them," instantly, because of my ability to pick up on non verbal cues with such vigilance, a byproduct of having to be hypervigilant throughout my childhood, so it goes both ways, things that are "weaknesses" eventually can become strengths

>>511033038
Sounds like cope. How would you know how to read people you've never been exposed to? Not everyone is the same as your retard parents. I wonder how many times you've dismissed a person, merely because you've imagined something in your head that wasn't real.

>>511033038
>"see through them,"
i'm like that. it is great, especially when you don't give a fuck about letting them know that you know

>>511033152
its not, non verbal cues are like a universal language

>>511033183
for me it's painful sometimes, like seeing they clearly dont want to interact but they feel obliged to, you can see from their body language they are "going through the motions," but their words give them a mask of "engagement" its like just drop the pretense lol like when an old friend pretends to be excited to see you exchanges numbers than doesnt call. i could tell they werent into it the whole time, but we had to go through all those painful motions anyways. maybe i should have adopted your position and just said, i can tell you arent into this lol

>>511032799 (OP)
seks is great with BDP queens on amphetamines, especially hatefuck

>>511033479
yeah. i heard from a friend

>>511033152
Typical Serbian retardation ramrodding itself in

>>511032799 (OP)
You should sacrifice yourself for a higher cause.