Anonymous
ID: 0nQIyVko
7/25/2025, 2:29:22 AM No.511277570
For years on end when I had a bad experience with an American multinational company, I developed a hatred for the company that i've chased in an obsessive way to the point I was banned from a Discord group due to how repetitive I was.
I'm autistic. I only had that diagnosis last year. Meanwhile, 'aided' by the pandemic, I became increasingly angry. I saw for the first time geopolitics and how they affect the everydauy life of people around the world. Soon that anger, after shifting from enemy to enemy, landed on the USA. It's okay to hate the US socially after all - a lot of people don't like them to start with, and people often won't go too deep into defending something like that. Without dissonant voices, I went on.
To my percieved enemies, I would obsess. Using fake e-mails to question them. Amidst my anger, I was trying to not commit a crime and get SWAT'd. Then I noticed I was angrier, I was having more stomachaches - I was having physical symptoms of my hatred, since I was making it a daily habit to go on groups and all sorts of social media to antagonize about anyone that percieved the US as something positive, instigating all sorts of discourse. I decided i'd stop by January.
But even with moderation, my desire to be an antagonist of the West continues. I've realized that pro-Russian is not the way to go since i'm literally bisexual and autistic, two things that Russians don't really enjoy - therefore it's schizophrenic to advocate for someone that wouldn't defend me. But i'm struggling. I know I can come up with good points, destabilize my oponent, find their weakness, read them through who they are.
Anons, what the fuck do I do? I'm under theraphy but my therapist continues saying this is a way to vent the frustrations I can't voice out in my life. I do have plenty but I feel like I lost myself and I don't know how to exist without actively hating the US and acting like a brat.
I'm autistic. I only had that diagnosis last year. Meanwhile, 'aided' by the pandemic, I became increasingly angry. I saw for the first time geopolitics and how they affect the everydauy life of people around the world. Soon that anger, after shifting from enemy to enemy, landed on the USA. It's okay to hate the US socially after all - a lot of people don't like them to start with, and people often won't go too deep into defending something like that. Without dissonant voices, I went on.
To my percieved enemies, I would obsess. Using fake e-mails to question them. Amidst my anger, I was trying to not commit a crime and get SWAT'd. Then I noticed I was angrier, I was having more stomachaches - I was having physical symptoms of my hatred, since I was making it a daily habit to go on groups and all sorts of social media to antagonize about anyone that percieved the US as something positive, instigating all sorts of discourse. I decided i'd stop by January.
But even with moderation, my desire to be an antagonist of the West continues. I've realized that pro-Russian is not the way to go since i'm literally bisexual and autistic, two things that Russians don't really enjoy - therefore it's schizophrenic to advocate for someone that wouldn't defend me. But i'm struggling. I know I can come up with good points, destabilize my oponent, find their weakness, read them through who they are.
Anons, what the fuck do I do? I'm under theraphy but my therapist continues saying this is a way to vent the frustrations I can't voice out in my life. I do have plenty but I feel like I lost myself and I don't know how to exist without actively hating the US and acting like a brat.
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