I'm 34. I did everything wrong in life, I think I'm enlightened though. Spiritual awakening is just realizing there are evil dark triad monsters everywhere, and that they dominate in life. A literal pure dark evil radiates from all aspects of the system (especially the media). Basically I think we live in hell, or just samsara. The west is crumbling down all around us, and some lucky faggots are like "hah! Got mine! Fuck you!" usually luck, connections, good looks, status, old money, yuppies. It's all fuckin rigged kids. Sometimes hard work pays off, but happens if you try to speak out about it not paying off? You get gas lit to shit and told that it's on you. They want everyone running on the treadmill. Some get the carrot, some don't. My uncle (boomer) was a fucking NEET, and his parents (my grandparents) build him a custom amazing house on private property and me married a sexy girl. My dad is jellous because she looks better than my mom in their old age. Dude lived an amazing life, and never did jack shit. Eventually he started doing some low pressure lawn mowing gigs and handy man shit, but he lived the dream doing absolutely nothing. I managed to turn everyone in my life against me, most of them were jealous when it looked like maybe I was gonna make it. Everyone cheered when my house of cards came tumbling down. If you are in your 20s and already here, it's a bad sign buddy boyos. The younger you are here, the worse of an omen it is. You might just end up like me. Smart, talented, tons of potential, but you never get anywhere in life. This life is a fucking trap, and most of the guys bragging about their shiny toys, hot women, and wonder shiny happy life are cut throat monsters who would stab you in the back 40 times and beg for mercy if you manged to over power them. This life is a joke.

(typed this up for the what's it like in your 30s friend just to find it was gone before I sent it. Fuck that. Enjoy)

>>511304242 (OP)
Uhhh I ain't reading all that but I'll post a Carl instead

>>511304242 (OP)
yeah I'm your age too and my life sucks major dick. I also felt like I almost made it in my late 20s. I almost bought the right cryptos to get rich. I almost made things work with the hot younger gf I had at the time. Now I'm in my 30s, been single for 5 years, money and investments not doing well, etc. Luckily I have a job I don't absolutely hate, and I have a few good friends, but that's all I have going really

>>511304414
It fits the post lol

I missed out on good shit in my teens. I had/have an old-fashioned introvert father. Why am I not allowed to make up for it?

>That ship sailed! Move on!
Why? I should have every right to live the normal and happy life I never had. Why can’t I have a do-over? I was never told what I was doing was wrong and to just stay positive.

most people, like 90% are epicureans (= hedonists, pleasure seekers, although epicurus himself was not a degenerate, just his followers), the other 10% are philosophically inclined over materialism/hedonism, this is the 10% or so with souls according to gnosticism too. as socrates said, the unexamined life is not worth living, and as terence said in a comedy and augustine repeated deliberately as the vandals were raping and murdering their way across roman north africa, "i am a human, and nothing human is alien to me"

>>511304242 (OP)
I'm 35 and just started back to school.
I'll be making twice as much money when I'm 40.
Ha ha faggot have fun giving up at 34 young man. I plan on getting my doctorate once I'm in my 60s.

>>511304242 (OP)
Also I didn't read that, go to sleep ur drunk

>>511304691
You’re going to be 40. Your milestones are gone. You will never be able to have the euphoric “first time” feeling everyone else had.

>>511304737
I'll be fucking teens in my 70s dumb nigger they'll be all over my wrinkly scrotum swallowing my down-syndrome-infected sperm, I'll send you photos then if you want

>>511304459
I got a couple of Carls saved
>>511304600
>I missed out on good shit in my teens
Like what? Being an adult gives you way more freedom and money to do what you actually want to do. Only real downside is your health slowly fading before your eyes.

>>511304242 (OP)
>I failed in life because i was just too smart for everybody and they were all jealous of me

You either have severe autism or narcissism. Either way you're insufferable to be around.

>>511304691
>>511304700
Why do I get the impression this is a boomer LARP trying to motivate me? I don't think I'll ever get over the lack of sex and affection in my 20s. What would motivate me is getting a lucky break. I need a beautiful woman to rock my world even though I'm not mr. flash money bags Chad thunder cock. I'm not playing the game anymore, I've had enough. I grew up on slop movies about how the nice shy guy always wins in the end. Holy fuck, I got pulverized lmao. Life is NOT like the movies. I like comfort, and I don't care.

>>511304935
At this point you should really just passport bro max and fuck hotties in southeast asia

>>511304921
You quoted something I didn't even say though.....

>>511305014
Yeah that would be nice, seems tough to pull off though. Also stories are coming out about white guys getting murdered and robbed over there. I think you need a decent amount of money saved, then maybe go with some degenerate friend who already knows the lay of the land over there. You can get condos in the same area and live the dream.

>>511305043
>You quoted something I didn't even say though.....
You did say it.

>>>511304242 (OP)
>You might just end up like me. Smart, talented, tons of potential, but you never get anywhere in life.
>I managed to turn everyone in my life against me, most of them were jealous when it looked like maybe I was gonna make it.

Did you forget that you said this? or were you lying?

Roll your next life

jfc is this your version of laney posting? is there going to be more of this loser shit?

>>511305168
Lets compare
>I failed in life because i was just too smart for everybody and they were all jealous of me

>You might just end up like me. Smart, talented, tons of potential, but you never get anywhere in life.

Saying you had untapped potential isn't the same as saying you "failed because you are too smart for everyone". Saying that people were envious of you in your best moments isn't the same as saying "I failed because people were envious of me"

There's a free English lesson for you retard. If you want you can pay me to do your homework for you, you have horrible reading comprehension.

>>511305298
That depends
>>511305205

>>511305302
it is the same. you said the lie. i said the truth.
you aren't that smart and you don't have that much untapped potential. saying you do is a cope
Nobody cares what you do, nobody cares enough to get jealous of you and sabotage your success. saying they did is a cope

>>511304898
Not legal. And since you’re an adult, you won’t have the virility you once had. You will never know what it’s like unless a law magically changes.
>>511304901
Like the feeling of a proper first kiss. A first sex. Being proud in front of young peers. Who the fuck am I going to impress today with a woman? I want to grow with a girl. I can’t in my 30s.

>>511305497
Oh, so you're just one of those simpfags then. Nvm.

>>511305494
>it is the same. you said the lie.
Hmmmmm, that sounds kind of like something a not white person would say.

I shit in a toilet ranjeet. Curry yourself.

>>511304935
>muh women
Even billionaires and celebrities get divorce raped all the time. Learn to live without a woman or move to a Muslim country where they keep their women in check.

>>511305590
It’s more than just having a partner. Your youth shapes your future. Your youth has energy and extra time. Your youth is where you make connection. Nobody respects someone just because of the numbers called age. You have Gen Z hating on millennials for absolutely no fucking reason.

A young and attractive rich man who just turned 20 has more respect than a wise old man. A DJ or an influencer prettyboy on TikTok has more respect than a welder or a plumber.

>>511305620
You just hopped from one cope to another one when you sensed that the first cope was not working any more.
>i failed at life because people sabotaged me because they were jealous that I'm so smart!!!!!
no
>uhhh....well.....uhh...... then you're not white!!!!
if this is how you act then that confirms you're insufferable to be around. i'm now leaning more toward you having narcissism instead of autism

>>511305992
Narcissistic people do what you are doing. Your inferiority amuses me.

>>511304242 (OP)
>thinks he's enlightened
>immediately reverts to a bogus American psychiatric framework to understand the world

Lol

>>511304242 (OP)
>here's some information about me
fuck off

>all that text
You're not enlightened, but I am >:)

>>511304242 (OP)
But then again I am 60 and agree with most of what you said, and despite my being a good person my life sucked for decades and I had the same envious narcissist relatives and fake friends as you did. Nothing went my way. Then one afternoon an accident happened.

I found out three days ago my settlement will make me a millionaire. So every dog has his day, young anon, and you will too. Just try to understand: God is real but He is patient as fuck. You have to go zen to get on His level. You can't speed Him up or change shit. But He does notice things.

And one day something cool will happen for you. Cheers.

>>511304242 (OP)
Anyway I think the best course of action for people like us is to figure out how to get rich or to otherwise drop out of the system. Sure, changing the system for the better is great and should be attempted, but you need time and money for that. But if that doesn't work, your life will be better if you can find out how to make a living without contributing to the negativity.

Right now I'm working a menial job for a contractor for the government, but I don't feel bad about my work. Even if I had 10 million in the bank I'd probably still do my job for a while until I developed a real plan. Would probably do a lot of traveling and learn to play music properly

>>511306220
You got millions at the age of 60. Are you married? Do you have kids? If not, what’s the point of that wealth?

>>511306220
One more thing to add. When the accident happened my life was already sucking massive donkey dick and it seemed like the accident was the worst thing ever to happen to me.

I am realllllly happen now that it happened. A good thing will happen for you. Always member happy day. Take care anon.

Enlightment is realising that the ends justify the means. Everything is subconcious programs to make you docile and a slave.

>>511306416
Enlightenment means jack shit once it’s too late. Philosophy is a waste of time. It’s just overthinking and no taking action. Nobody likes thinkers. People like doers.

>>511306562
Exactly.

>>511306150
Psychology gate keeps the spiritual. Narcissists are demonically oppressed or possessed people.

>>511304242 (OP)
>I'm 34. I did everything wrong
based

>>511306220
Hell yeah, cozy life incoming!

>>511304242 (OP)
You literally didn't learn shit and you made up some fantasy lore so you don't hang yourself.

>>511304242 (OP)
>Smart, talented, tons of potential, but you never get anywhere in life.
Literally me. I feel like I could be doing so much more, and yet I'm squandering my life working with women and wiping ass at a home care facility. I did everything I was told, got the 4 year degree and everything. And I'm stuck living paycheck to paycheck working with literal retards and women. There's no way out. No path I can take, nothing. Whenever I've ever complained to friends and relatives about struggling to take off and have a stable normal life, I get attacked for having White privilege. Now I'm 32 with nothing but debt and even more precarity and struggle just to maintain my shitty existence. Im starting to see the signs of age, and it's making me realize how much more awful life will continue to be. I can't even cry myself to sleep anymore, I'm that empty and used up. Im trying to write a book - it's one of the last promises I made to my younger self that I haven't broken. But even with this, I'm getting nowhere. The void in my soul has vaporized all the creativity and passion I was brimming with as a young child. What a waste this "great cosmic lottery" is.

>>511304242 (OP)
The people whose goal is to have money and power and status go for it and get it. You have to basically burn away your spiritual nerve endings though. Your conscience, so you can't feel that anymore. It was getting in the way.
Well, it's actually very important for more important things than shallow wealth and status and temporary power.

>>511307290
Testimonies like this make other anons feel less crazy. So many are suffering. At least you are working, hopefully normies aren't being too harsh on you. Write the book anon.

>>511304242 (OP)
fag

>>511307146
>narcissists
Again with the APA bullshit.

>>511305302
>Implying

>>511305802
Yup. Do you know why? People want to take advantage of the 20 year old because of his youth and money. But what you don't understand is once you are old money doesn't matter. It's only kids who think a rich kid means anything. As for why genz is hating on millennials is because they are bitter. Genz has nothing going for them and are looking for scapegoats. Sorta like millennials did for boomers. Genz knows millennials have some money and they want it for free without working. Because they want to use the money to impress their peers.

You see? Its a never ending cycle. As they say age 20 is the age of ingratitude.

>>511307533
It got replies. I have created more motion in the cosmic accident. We all have.

>>511307600
I hate psychologists with a passion. I tell men to never go to therapy, at all costs. You are too hung up on the word "narcissist". We know what it is, and that's the mainstream label. People who treat everyone like dogshit because they have fragile little egos they want to shove down everyone else's throat. They are trash people.

>>511307834
You fat nigger the only cosmic motion you have is your orbit.

>>511307477
I’m going to let you in on a little something. There are less “normies” these days. A lot of people were lied to, misled, and neglected. What Gen X complains about, Millennials actually had happen to them. Many Gen Z too.

This is the ideal of a “normie.”

>Some kid named Tyler or Joseph
>Grew up in suburbia with good weather, low crime, etc. May or may not have had a sibling.
>Dad was present and not lazy. Told Tyler how to do sports properly, encouraged confidence. Allowed his son to stand up to bullies instead of “talking like an adult.”
>Took up sports, probably soccer or baseball.
>Wasnt a nerd too much into geeky hobbies. Had a family that involved him in activities as a unit.
>Got grades with a B average but was never a dweeb.
>Got a girlfriend as young at 13 and oldest at 14. Lost his virginity then and it was awesome for him.
>Girlfriend is a typical attractive white girl from the same type of equivalent background.
>Marries young.
>His wife is attractive and looks good enough for Instagram to share marriage photos and pumpkin spice lattes.
>He has a stable career and a family.

This is the “normie” ideal and it’s no longer common.

I was supposed to be a physician but when I toured medical schools I saw how batshit woke and crazy liberal they were.
Total DEI slop with 90 IQ brown girls and greasy kikes playing "doctor." Then when COVID hit and they clot shotted everybody I was horrified.

>>511307290
>I can't even cry myself to sleep anymore, I'm that empty and used up.

I feel this hard. This is one of the worst things about being in my 30s. I literally just don't feel as strongly anymore, and it's terrifying. I'm not sure if it's an emotional numbness borne out of years of wanting, or if it's a normal component of aging. But I really don't like it. I'm trying to lean hard on the self improvement thing, and I want to find a woman again, but even the idea of falling in love again seems impossible, especially after my last relationship with a BPD girl. Like, I could meet a perfect woman who was super hot and very sweet, and even if she was crazy about me and we got together, I don't actually know if I would be capable of falling in love with her like I was with previous women in my life. It feels like that part of me has been used up and I don't know how to get it back.

The only time I feel anything strong emotion-wise is when I'm consuming hard drugs, and I don't want to do that for obvious health reasons

>>511304737
It doesn't matter. Once you get older you know people are liabilities right? Everyone gets older and when your body starts to go you will understand that young people are soul sucking animals. Another mouth to feed. Another persons baggage to deal with. Old people make it because they planned for the future. Young people who never grow old just die.

>>511307797
>Millennials have money
You’d be surprised that few do. The ones who made it were the pretty ones or those who were on the cusp on Gen X. I see /pol/ is like 90% computer science majors and all of them are working a shitty retail or warehouse job. If you divide the financial stability or success between genders, it’s mostly women making the money. Look at any office job that pays above retail minimum wage. Almost all offices are staffed by women and one male owner.

>>511307918
>This is the “normie” ideal and it’s no longer common.

I'd say all of that is pretty normal with the exception of marrying young. Even as a mid-30s millennial who grew up in an upper middle class lifestyle (private schools my whole life plus college), I don't know anyone who felt marriage was expected when super young. I don't know anyone who got married before 25. Even now in my mid-30s, I know a lot of people who are just finally marrying their gf/bfs after 10+ years of "dating"

>>511307918
You are more describing the upper middle class not normies. Normies are those who are working class and not so hot people. Normies are those who always react to 4ch culture on the downstream. Like for example eating healthy. Normies were not eating healthy until they found out we were making fun of their dietary habits. This goes for everything.

>>511308048
No i mean institutional wealth. Genz has no access to any type of inheritance or passive income. They missed out on everything and are super bitter. They are working dead end jobs and renting. They don't even have a basement like we did 15 years ago. Their parents are genx who didn't have the wealth like the boomers.

>>511308233
Wasn’t that upper middle class the American standard for decades?

>>511307949
Its just because you are old. Falling in love or love in general is an emotional reaction to your DNA telling you to mate. It's a survival mechanism of the human species. Love is not rational as it tricks you into procreating which is a net negative to your own survival yet a net positive to the species survival.

I was in love with a girl but i knew that love was extremely temporary because that feeling was my body telling me to mate. The love might've lasted for 2 or 3 years but then it would abruptly end and i would be stuck with a kid to care for and that means sacrificing myself for the new life.

>>511304242 (OP)
>stab you in the back
jab you in the front

>>511308578
I wouldn't say so. Maybe middle class but not upper middle class. Most Americans(Normies) are working class just not deluded anymore thinking they are living the pinnacle of civilization because they have access to games and fast food. It used to be that not so long ago you were set if you all your creature comforts set. People woiuld brag about their big tv, new movies, new games. Not anymore. The only people doing well in America are professionals and that's not the majority by a long shot.

>>511304935
>nice shy guy

Lol, you fell for the trope and serves you right. There's no such thing as "nice guys": they're just pussies, afraid of getting rejected or their asses kicked so they put on a front. If you're being nice just to get something, you're not actually nice and people-especially women-will sniff that out immediately. Life isn't fair, the good often suffer and the nasty get what they want because they have the sheer confidence and lack of fucks to give. That's how it is, like it or not.

>>511304242 (OP)
>I'm 34. I did everything wrong in life
you could have stopped here
the rest of your post is just excuses for why you fucked up
>muh evil aura
>muh money
>muh monsters
now complain how gravity kept you down, loser

>>511309219
I watched those movies and tv shows as a child. I came home to an empty house and turned on the TV. Not to mention public school teaching you to never defend yourself. I grew up in a male cucking machine. Didn't really have a chance. The nail in the coffin was being short.

>>511307949
>I literally just don't feel as strongly anymore, and it's terrifying
what?
being free(er) of emotions has been the best part of getting older
I'm approaching 50 and becoming emotionally untouchable
no bitch, no faggot, no situation gets to me anymore
the amount of fucks I give is quickly approaching absolute zero

>>511304935
You'll get over it. Sex is a sacrifice for the man. You are basically exhausting your life force to create a new life. That's all it is. If you are still feeling emotionally upset it means you still have time to form a relationship and can do it. But you won't because what you want is that relationalship at a younger age. (We all did)

That's why we rebelled and blamed the boomers because they wouldn't help us achieve that. Boomers had money but they just refused to give it. Because they are very selfish people.

blogposting faget

modern society reward effeminate jewish behavior (backstabbing, social clout, performative nonsense, hierarchies)

this is why everything feels fake and shit

>>511304242 (OP)
>The younger you are here, the worse of an omen it is
also 34, and have used 4chan since 2004. pretty grim, but my wife has a baby on the way. Life could be better, but it's not so bad

>>511309573
Capitalism is a misnomer in human history. It took the jews 3000 years of opportunism to create it. The post WW2 world is fake. Completely fake. And states like Russia, China and Iran know it's fake and are acting accordingly. States in the fake European economic union will wake up too. America itself will unfuck itself when the economy implodes.

>>511309473
Yup. Your nerves have become hardened. You got no fucks to give and know how the world really works.

>>511309479
I had “rich” parents growing up and they never used that money to help unless it was school-related rather than real life things that could actually shape your organic future.

A car like all the other kids? Tough luck, son! Maybe in college! Meanwhile, a kid who had a Ford Mustang got laid to a hot girl just because he had that car. A fat kid got liposuction because his parents gave a shit about his status and networking. Other kids had parents give them growth hormones to be a jock. Anyone who didn’t look like they shopped at Hollister or Zuimez got absolutely shafted. Nah, I was told to “be yourself.”

>>511310046
>hey never used that money to help unless it was school-related
they did you a favor
> Meanwhile, a kid who had a Ford Mustang got laid
daaad, give me a car so I can get laid
daaad, build me a house so I can get a wife
daaad, guide my dick into her pussy so she can
get pregnant
jesus fucking christ

>>511310046
>Tough luck, son!
Mentally ill boomers ruining their own child's entire life for some extra Chick-Fil-A.

>>511310129
He's right, you are a subhuman.

I am old and everything bad

>>511310046
The problem is we were raised in the burbs which is a socially isolating construct. At least i was. And everything was far and out of reach without a car. Boomers wanted us to sacrifice and eat shit and like it. Pay our dues as it were and then we could have a decent life after.

Looking back they were right in a way. As a kid all you care about is money because money gets you things. But money won't buy you a life. You have to choose to build it. But at the same time boomers were ignorant about the truth that the jews control the world and don't understand the economy is designed to be hostile to the working class. And even if they did know i was never told the truth. I was just told be a sucker and work. It's a combination of my own inaction and circumstance which lead me to my downfall.

But the thing is it doesn't matter. Near the end of road maybe having the wife, house, kids would be a massive liability today. There's no saftey net and maybe i would be stuck divorced paying alimony while working dead end jobs instead of shitposting. Im just saying kids are liabilities and men have no rights.

>>511310129
I never asked for anything fancy like the people on TV. They basically said “Don’t worry son. They’ll get more mature once you’re in college.” Or “You’re not fat. You’re a growing boy. You’ll grow into it.” It wasn’t until 21 I became skinny and then for almost a whole decade I had an eating disorder where I was anorexic.

Mother enabled bad habits. Father just watched TV if he wasn’t helping with homework. His advice, even to this day, is the epitome of boomer-tier. I’m talking a boomer dad who watches Law and Order and Wheel of Fortune. Mother says to just stay positive.

>>511310679
The boomers killed America and China is going to finish it off.

>>511304242 (OP)
bro its jews. your welcome.

>>511310679
>They basically said “Don’t worry son. They’ll get more mature once you’re in college.”
they were trying to gently tell you that you weren't born an alpha Chad and you won't get laid on your looks alone
they were also subtly telling you you need to work on your accomplishments like college to have other qualities that attract women (good job, career prospects)
sounds like they understood your position in life better than you

>>511304242 (OP)
“spiritual awakening is realising that one sole elment of creation involves evil spirits, I’m now fully awakened. Nothing else to learn.”
Why you gotta be like this? Did you stop and think - maybe that’s not all there is to wisdom? I meant that’s just basic level spiritual knowledge and one part of the story.

>>511310129
I think its the parents job to be the bigger man here. Kids can pout and cry but i remember i wasn't allowed to. Because subconsciously boomers hated working and didn't want to sacrifice for their kids. So instead of working to give their children a leg up boomers would make their children work so they could work less. I remember having to do all these pointless chores that were unnecessary and inefficient. Because my father was angry i was living in his house for free. Boomers were actually hostile to their own kids.

The work i did was entirely unnecessary. Like busy work. It was designed to make us hate life living at home but all it did was make us hate working in general.

>>511310990
>Because my father was angry i was living in his house for free
were you at the time in college or doing something to progress yourself?
>The work i did was entirely unnecessary. Like busy work.
like what?

>>511310990
>Boomers were actually hostile to their own kids.
Literally me.

>>511310840
They could have fixed that. They could have taken me to a surgeon, not fatten me up, or at least encouraged outdoor activities as a family to stay healthy. No, instead I became that awkward kid with the ponytail who hid from the world because of rejection while being told I’m a handsome young man.

At least I wasn’t a fridge unit or had acne. No fedora either. No, I had to be the kid listening to Metallica while everyone else listened to Soulja Boy and CKY.

If anything, I feel sabotaged.

>>511310554
Everything is objectively bad though. That is unless you planned to fuck over everyone when you were young and still had a heart like the psychopathic jews do.

>>511311282
>I feel sabotaged.
Boomer father fucks up my life so hard even Hitler knows about it.

>>511311214
I was 12. Just busy work by hand so my father could sit back and watch me do it while he drank. Boomers made life hard on purpose. It took me a long time to break that conditioning to get out of that work harder not smarter mindset.

>>511311282
>that awkward kid with the ponytail
>the kid listening to Metallica
lol you sound like me just younger
>while being told I’m a handsome
your grandma lied, anon, as did mine

>>511311473
>I was 12. Just busy work by hand so my father could sit back
yeah does sound excessive
dad made me help him tinker with house stuff, which was also time and cost ineffective but at least we were doing something together and he taught me to hold the god damned flashlight straight lol

>>511304691
>I plan on getting my doctorate once I'm in my 60s.
Based. I too want to start a - probably useless - PhD just for the sake of having one.

>>511311588
Boomers were too hard on themselves. Everything they did was to fuck themselves up at the same time. Dick punchers. Smoke, drank, worked in harsh conditions, did stupid things, no safety, no protections.

That's the boomer life. No sunscreen, no hat, no gloves. Now get to work! These days nobody even changes their oil without latex gloves.

>>511304242 (OP)
>I'm 34. I did everything wrong in life,
Wow, that's really cool Do you have a blog where we can get more advice about how to be a fuckup?

>>511309359
Sorry to hear that anon, the media is fucking poison through and through. Same for society.

>>511304691
>>511304414
>>511304242 (OP)
>Giving a shit about anything after the government committed COVID fraud, all universities lied, and all the females got injected with poison

Basically I hope everyone dies, I will never pay taxes, and I'm taking so if the welfare.
I love on my own schedule and lounge around so day after getting all of the snap my body wants and waking up whenever I want.

Go ahead, go back to school, pay taxes, etc. lol LMAO

Being a loser is unironically being a winner.

>>511316850
>>511315095

>>511304242 (OP)
>Everyone cheered when my house of cards came tumbling down

Important life lesson, those closest to you that you think want the best for you will often celebrate your downfall, most people do not want to see others doing better, but they want to see them fail and point and laugh at them. I have a literal retard "friend" that will literally point and laugh at me like some dunce retard every time I stumble on anything like I am his fail-comp entertainment, it made me realize most people don't want to see others do well

>>511305205
Rolling sarr

>>511305205
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>>511304242 (OP)
naw mangs, spiritual enlightenment is when you move away form duality, you realize what you call evil is the same coin of good from another perspective, and it's all coming from you, it's your own shadow. You don't get it until you just get it. Idk, I've struggled all my life with this myself because it seems a lot of people are wired in a way that it makes it impossible for them to see it, it really is hard coded in humanity. Think about it this way, the human brain is a receiver of divine energy, with this divine energy, it creates a reality bubble for itself to experience that we call physical life. now then, the brain is also divided in two, words and language are a thing of the intellectual brain, and so is time, and so is death, and decay, and lack, and scarcity. Intellectualism is married with decay and decay begets evilness. The other side of the brain doesn't see time, or scarcity, or lack, or good or evil, it's an ever present calmness, a quiet presence passively observing, everything exists as it is without judgement. When you stop trying to understand and judge everything, you automatically use that other brain, and it quietly fixes the matrix bubble for you, this is what people normally call meditation, it's just that nobody understand it mechanically, because you are not supposed to.