>>511321060 (OP)You might not wanna believe me, but when I was a kid my mom took me to a psychologist to take an IQ test and I got an impressive score of 138 (15 SD)
I was kind of good at school, particularly at math, and I even felt smart myself back then (I taught myself C at age 13, and I know everyone does it these days but it was something I was really proud of). I had really good memory, and I was very creative and able to learn quickly, but I was always a depressive kid so I was put on antidepressants at a very early age
Now I'm 38 and I can't do any of the things mentioned above anymore. I can barely speak coherently, I always misconjugate words when I speak. In spanish, words are gendered and I even have a hard time gendering words now. My imagination is dead. I can't articulate complex thoughts anymore. Both my short and long term memory have deteriorated to the point that I'm don't trust my memory at all, and I don't care about anything anymore. I was never vaxed but I took all sort of antidepressants continuously since age 11 until I was about 32
Life is hell