Thread 511987345

>be 15-16
>get inspired by great men, realize I want to be a Ubermensch
>start studying math, go through 6 large textbooks in a year, algebra all the way to partial differential equations
>teach myself the equivalent of circuits 1 and 2 along with C/C++ in same year
>start working out, not crazy progress like the math studying though but stronger than most of my peers by 17
>start doing vipassana mediation, reach gnosis often, its like psycedelics but WAY better
>start reading jung and the Bible and the Gita and other religions books, develope a relationship with god and let him guide me
>whole world at my fingertips
>get lonely cuz no freinds
>befriended local stoners i met while walking my dog
>instantly get addicted beacuse i likes being high so much, started smoking cigarettes also
>went from extreme self improvement to hanging by the fucking gas station like Jay and silent Bob
>didnt care at the time beacuse im finally soclizing and have freind after going through high school absolutely freindless


I managed to get an engineering degree and im an engineer, average and 105k salary at 31(not great...). This is still impressive with the amount of drug I have been doing 24/7. If it wasn't for weed I would have been part of the 1 percent. I had so much momentum, so much potential. Im 5 days sober right now. I feel my energy and brain power coming back but its still obvious Im always gonna be a former shell of what I uses to be. 15 year of smoking(12-13 of heavy daily smoking) has ruined me.


Ever other stoner I know is living the worst life possible. Either dead, on fet about about to die, multiple kids with a crazy baby mama living in a trailer or his car, at best bare mimunum existence were they spend what little money they have left from this minimum wage job to buy the worst quality weed imaginable. This drug has done a lot of damage and no one will realize how much until a generation that doesnt smoke comes along..

cool story faggot
now go buy someone who cares

And honestly I was smoking before I met the stoners, just not 24/7, couldn't find it often either. I was addicted before I ever touched it beacuse of pop culture and all the movies. I used to pretend like I was smoking while watching grandma's boy at 13.. I wish I had someone there to tell me that it is addicting and bad. All i heared was that it was good for u

>>511987345 (OP)
never bothered with any of that gay learning shit or gay engineer loser poorfag wagecuck jobs, just bought BTC and became rich while smoking weed everyday.

>>511988600
How rich? Im gonna invest my .money in shitcoins now that im not smoking weed anymore

>smoke weed
>with the amount of drug i was doing
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
poser retard, if you do drugs do them all, don't talk about being duhhh smart and shit if you haven't experienced consciousness in 20 different states
weed is the nigger of drugs

>>511987345 (OP)
>>instantly get addicted beacuse i likes being high so much
Bitch ass nigga how do you get addicted to weed lmao
>started smoking cigarettes also
This is also not so difficult to stop. The withdrawal is less bad than caffeine lol.
It's making yourself not consume cigs is what is the challenge.

Hanging at the gas station if extremely enlightening though. All those things are equally cool man.

>>511987345 (OP)
I work 100 hours a week and get bullied and gangstalked relentlessly. Do better.

>>511988773
dude how tf can you be a poorfag as a weed smoker?
you can literally grow it anywhere and there is a guy at every corner wanting some.
if you couldnt even figure this super simple shit out, or even figure out something as simple as Bitcoin, how tf do you believe yourself to be smart?

>>511989026
I miss it when bum low class rural teen girls would hang out at the gas stations and fuck and suck older men for drinks and cigs. Now it’s just homeless paki migrants and retarded schizo niggers. What happened to this country?

>>511987345 (OP)
>meth
The post

>>511987345 (OP)
Did you at least score any decent trim?

>>511987345 (OP)

You're ahead of the curve already and it's not like the people not smoking weed are doing so great

>>511987345 (OP)
Did you actually reach the point of nondual mystical union, or were you still in the visionary stages within an observer/observed duality? Even if your egoic self had "dissolved" your higher Self/Logos may not have fully merged with the One

>>511989242
Just do it in rural towns, unfortunately the only gas station closes at 10:30 here
t. population 350 town

>>511989692
are you retarded?

tl;dr but whatever
DMT is better than weed.

>>511987345 (OP)
>Dear diary......
not your blog, faggot.

>>511987345 (OP)
>muh weed made me a loser
holy shit what a retard
OP sucks massive cocks per usual

>>511987345 (OP)
>I want to be a Ubermensch
>I want to be
Read Nietzsche, loser. "Being" Ubermensch isn't a goal you can reach, but rather a way of life. You "are" Ubermensch by acting, not by being.

>>511988773
>money in shitcoins
don't shitcoin, only buy bitcoin
shitcoins are worse than weed, they are bad for you, they will all ultimately go to 0 as would many national fiat currencies, especially the dollar.

>>511987345 (OP)
You sound like that girl that did ayahuasca and got raped and got ancestral trauma and they told her this is her life now blabla blablalbalblabla

>>511987345 (OP)
You can drive down the road tomorrow and get hit buy a big rig semi completely flattening your car and you in it and nothing would matter anyways so who cares

>>511988971
Ive done meth, dozens of times..

>>511988988
Caffeine isnt addicting and has no withdrawls. What now?
>>511989026
It was very very cool and kind of kino even cuz he harassed everyone that came through there but i woild rather be running a company than have good memories

>>511989151
Im not poor, I shop at whole foods. But im not Richmond also after smoking for so long I can only do top shelf

>>511989692
Visionary stages. I have reached an even higher that of that u mentioned with sass and shrooms but I didnt retain anything cuz thats psycedelics for u..

>>511991986
Ye, I started acting like one, then stopped

>>511994174
It will cuz reincarnation

i hit a dab after 4 months off weed and got right back addicted to daily. its over for me

>>511987345 (OP)
>no friends
>try to cope with it by doing self improvement to be better than others
>doesn't self improve with genuine friendships
>god guides you to weed
>finally feels what its like to have friends
>gets a good job and live a decent life
>15 years later blaming weed and friends for not being a multi millionaire

All that meditation and spiritual reading and you still missed the entire point. And here you are, 15 years later-- ungrateful, complaining on an anonymous forum about how you're not in the top 1% of humans and not a millionaire.

Spend some more time being grateful for life and what you have. Don't blame your friends and weed for your regrets. It was all you to begin with.