Atheism is reality, and it's better to embrace nature as opposed to fairy tales

I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Every single atom is gaslighting me. I wake up praying today will be the day — the day reality finally bends the knee to God — but no. The sky’s still blue for no reason, like it chose to betray me. The sun still rises on time without divine input, like it's mocking me personally. I BEG for a sign and get hit with cold, clinical consistency. The rules never break. The math always adds up. Water REFUSES to become wine. I scream at it and it just sits there, H2O-ing like some smug atheist NPC. I PRAY over my sickness and the germs don’t care. They replicate. They LAUGH. I’m LOSING. I’m in a war with REALITY and it’s winning by default because it REFUSES to acknowledge my God.

DO YOU HEAR ME? I am being actively oppressed by causality. I try to invoke divine law and PHYSICS calls the cops. I’m down on my knees BEGGING for a miracle and even my dog looks at me like I’m mentally ill. NOTHING BREAKS. NOTHING TILTS. NOTHING. FUCKING. BENDS. I go to church, I tithe, I scream, I cry, and gravity still works. GRAVITY. Won’t. BUDGE. The devil isn’t in people — he’s in the equations. In the constants. In the STRUCTURE of space-time. I'm shadowbanned by existence. Shadowbanned by TRUTH. I am LITERALLY being ratio’d by the universe. God isn’t dead — he’s been muted. Muted by the fabric of creation. This isn’t faith anymore, it’s schizophrenia with better branding. I'M NOT CRAZY. THE WORLD IS. The world is a coordinated anti-Christ shill campaign and I’m the only one screaming in a room where even the air is atheist.

>>512274237 (OP)
Yes, but godtards are cowards who don't have the sack to face the fact that one day they will be DEAD DEAD DEAD and will remain dead FOREVER. BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
Ahhh, feels so good not to be a snivelling coward. Death can lick my balls. So can god