cried for the first time in a long time (after thinking of God)

i have spent so long chasing dopamine chasing women chasing happiness i was numb, i wanst depressed, i felt like a desensetized robot no soul nothing im crying as im typing this i dont know what it is, something is pulling me towards god after such long time i actually felt something that i didnt feel in a long time

>>513897801 (OP)
Middle life crisis.

>>513897801 (OP)
God is rael

>>513897979
is real*

>>513897801 (OP)
That voice convicting you is right, you're a no good unworthy PoS. Agree with it, because the only thing in the world that's redeeming is the precious blood of Christ. Read the book of John (it only takes 3 hours!) there's no more important and foundational book for Western Christendom, even an atheist could find the time for that. If you feel like reading further read the synoptic gospels Matthew Mark and Luke/Acts in that order. Then some Epistles starting with Romans

>>513897801 (OP)
Christ is King

>>513897979
Now that's a Freudian slip.

>>513897801 (OP)
Had a similar experience after traumatic event. Realized it isn't God since we're in a reincarnation cycle. The reason you feel like it's God is because it's a defense mechanism in your mind to prevent significant mental trauma, the subconscious, likely a cycle protocol to protect you, selects and activates something you can grasp, which for most people is God or some other religious experience.

That being said, you must have been on the edge anon. Sorry you had to experience whatever that was. On the bright side having dealt with it means if you can manage to awaken it'll help you deal with the trauma that comes from awakening, and weather limbo.

>>513897801 (OP)
Keep going.

>>513897801 (OP)
There’s a book in the Bible about this.
https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Ecclesiastes-Chapter-1/

>>513897801 (OP)
Thats what you get for living in the netherlands where people fuck in parks and take drugs all day. Also this is almost certainly a datamining thread