>>513965212i forgot who i was and everything else in this reality. i felt into a vortex of light. on the other side, i struggled at first because it felt like i was dying
eventually i stopped struggling because i was tired, it was like i was telling god that i was ready to go, i would do anything to let go at last
after that, i went back to this reality and spent hours and hours in a literal hell, as if i were punished for ever thinking i could leave
the first and only time i've been afraid in my life. sometimes i wonder if i'm already in hell...