>>516615882 (OP)
It's okay that you're angry, OP. I was once an atheist, and now I'm Gnostic. You were placed in a material world and blinded from the true reality that lies beyond it. Christ tried to teach us how to return to our home in the kingdom of God, but many of the records of his teachings were labeled as heresies and destroyed by the early church. Even today, if you read any of the surviving works like the Apocryphon of John or the Gospel of Thomas, you'll be called a heretic by modern Christians.
Just know that Christ loves you. You will stumble many times. You may end up having to live a few more lifetimes. But eventually you regain the knowledge you have lost. And you will be able to leave this cursed creation of the demiurge.