>>518773829 (OP)
i think my dysthymia finally caught up to me in my old age.
i no longer find watching films or tv enjoyable.
i no longer find playing video games enjoyable now that i understand the basic mechanics of the gameplay loop skinner box.
going on youtube and getting caught in youtube reels feels like an addiction i want to escape by my desire for more information keeps me there.
its like that one portlandia skit about being stuck in a technology loop.
i put twitch streamers on in the backround, i don't play games I just silently lurk twitch streamers as they play the latest games.
I honestly dont see why people buy games any more. just watch other people play theses games.
honestly if you like playing games.
and still can appreciate it.
then i will forgive you if you have a job or a family etc, and use it as a bonding expierence and/or just a time waster to destress.
when i was working playing league of legends and masturbating to porn was the best way for me to destress, however it kept me inside on the weekends instead of hanging out with my friends.
but then again my friends just want to stay in their homes, drink and smoke and watch amnime.
cool for a bit. but I like to wander. and people here are too scared of getting stabbed or robbed.
they don't know that if you walk around in a posse and stay mindful and if you are dudes people wont fuck with you.
but whatevs.
anyways i digress.
other than time waster/bonding. dif you are 40 and playing games and aren't developing a video game or do some sort of artistic vision you are absolutley fucking up.