>>520239117 (OP)
Look, I assume you're a troll, but if you aren't:
Find shit you like. It might be a long, slow drag, you might not reach ecstatic heights. Find shit you like and do it. Find a job you can tolerate. Tuck a bit of cash away each fortnight to be comfortable as you age. Fucking nobody cares about you, so help yourself. You want a long and comfortable life filled with things you like. It doesn't have to be perfect. It's just got to be meaningful to you.
I didn't end up married and I'm old as fuck now. Women are insane, I don't want anyone single at my age. You'll regret it, but whatever. You learn to live with it. I look back on relationships even with a woman I was great friends with for years before we got together and found precious little love, no peace or happiness and yet I still want that connection emotionally despite knowing intellectually it's fucking miserable. So realise you'll have to learn to live with that. Try to keep some connections with your family even though they'll never fully understand and always be disappointed.
Religion? Fine. Whatever. I go to mass weekly, I pray. I've never felt the true presence of god in my life, but I keep up the habit. Doesn't matter what it religion it is. Try to be a decent person by your own standards. Gym? Same thing - build a habit. You're doing it for you. Don't expect huge changes in your life for small things, don't expect help, don't expect people to celebrate you, don't do things for them. Do them because they make you happy even for a moment, not for your nation, not for your family, not for your boss. Survive any way you can. Every day you wake up is a tiny victory.
And curse the kikes every waking second.