I suffered with overwhelming feelings of suicide and self termination from the disapproval of others, even of non-whites and Jews who adminster the USA, before I realized what my biology was up to regarding males having a negative cost to a species because they can't reproduce, and how the bottom-half of males are a dead-weight to a species since the women should only be reproducing with the top square-root of the males to maximize speed of evolution. Non-whites don't suffer from feelings of suicide so much, since fucking other races comes naturally to African shit skins, Hispanics, Arab Jews and to a much lesser extent Eastern Asiatics chinks and Chinese/Japanese.
Once you are able to cerebrally square all this and know that you know it, you realize why Suicide is optimal policy for a male that feels worthless even when that's not really true since disapproval is a function of other shit skin races and Jewish races not liking you for your DNA.
The feelings of suicide can subside once you realize that the Bible and the Talmud are meant to damage you in the head area, by amplifying these feelings of guilt and sin and worthlessness, that's what the Jewish Polyergus wants: a Formica. Now you have the DNA based reason why Jews want everything around DNA to be forced Equal, Jews are the people of Robbery as optimal policy, and you gotta keep em separated.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkbbk5HCCmU&t=125
The reason white birthrates go down with a jewish state Hegimon, becomes completely clear, and when you're ready to say it's time for all Churches in the USA to go away, the feelings of suicide are replaced with feelings of Godpower. I do in fact wish all of you humans to fall away and die. Like the Romans, no quarrel given, Jews belong in Gaza, then you have my blessing to murder every human person there, without consequence.