>>521001926 (OP)
She's not. I've never fell in love with a woman nor felt extra special about one. Most modern women are just outright gross and repulsive.
>>521002174
Staying with my mom temporarily after a staged gangstalking accident where the boomer Navy freemason ran a stop sign which made me lose my job and need surgery and at least once a day think about how much I hate my greedy evil bitch of a mom and how I can't wait to buy land and never speak to her again cause I'm not paying for her stupid fucking truck she didn't need. She's one person with two expensive vehicles trying to tell me I owe her rent or some shit.
>>521001926 (OP)
My crush is a 21 year old goth girl at my Starbucks who has the same interests as me but I’m 37 and engaged and every time I talk to her she looks happy and then sad after. Fuck
The thing I have are concepts, ideals, but I know it's all performative. So I enjoy the performance whenever I can. The goal right now is to get as much money as possible to "buy love" so to speak.
>>521001926 (OP) >your crush is out there
I don't see any White women at all in California, and all the women I see on the internet are whores. I don't even have a crush.