>be me
>almost 30
>been isolated since I was 12
>entire life = internet, vidya, porn, drugs, booze
>suicidal thoughts on loop 24/7
>hate myself
>cut myself sometimes just to feel something
>went to therapy, shrinks, took meds
>ate nothing but junk
>never exercised
>sleep schedule is a joke
>hygiene? what's that
>never go outside unless absolutely necessary
>no irl friends, no gf, no human connection
>no sex, no dates, no romance
>no school, no job
>literally just rotting
>starting to realize I wasted my entire life
>regret hits like a freight train

>>81464973 (OP)
there's a way out friend

>>81464973 (OP)
not your fault, your parents and the entire society failed you.

>>81464973 (OP)
welcome to being a man, idiot.

>>81464985
This, just take small steps every day towards something better and you'll notice a difference in a few years if you stay consistent. It's hard but it works