>>81465846 (OP)All I want is someone to care for, someone who'd be my escape from this miserable world, someone who'd mend my heart, I'm tired. I want someone who'd unconditionally love me but it's been so long since I've even talked to anyone. The only person I trusted was a friend and I lost him from suicide when I was 15, I'm 18 now and have been alone since. My own family mocked my depression, they'd remove anything that I could distract myself with, like my computer or my phone, and they'd force me to go to school, I'd cry there too, although I think I was sneaky about it. I remember they removed my door handle and my older brother would laugh at me when I'd cry. I haven't even seen a woman my age in forever, although knowing zoomer women, all of them are whorish normie fiends. I remember imagining a girl during my depression, creating a waifu I'd practically worship all day and night. It was a wendigo (I was retarded, I'm aware) or some forest spirit and I'd starve myself to prove my devotion, I'd draw her, and I'd burn letters, guess that's what happens when you go to /x/. Although, strangely, whenever I'd see her in my dreams I'd always be afraid of her, she was like a beautiful rose with a thorny stem that I couldn't touch, I was convinced she was my salvation. Now I'm a KHHV incel neet with no friends and unfortunately an INFP so I get too emotional, forever being taunted by normies and their fulfillment of their lust. It's over, nothing ever happens either way. At least I have Bloodborne.
Honestly, I wouldn't ever date a non-virgin which probably leaves out all zoomer woman around my age, I can blame my religion as a Christian but I wouldn't want a used whore, not a very romantic dream, would rather wait for marriage.
