I don't enjoy anything in life holy fucking shit dude

>>81477390 (OP)
Neither do i. We should be frens

>>81477390 (OP)
same. I'm an empty shell of a person

This must be what its like for other people to see one of my threads.

>>81477390 (OP)
>>81477395
>>81477527
We could form a platonic polycule or something. Do you guys have discord

we should try kissing as an ironic joke. It's not like there is anything better to do

>>81477390 (OP)
super true. only thing that keeps me going are online friends and my only current best friend

>>81477560
True, anon. It's the closest we'll get to losing our KHHV status anyway. And I bet your tongue would feel really nice.

you guys are gay, im outta here

>>81477628
I said it would be platonic

>>81477642
look at what you did, you scared him off

>>81477646
You're probably the guy that started talking about kissing I didn't mention anything of the sort

Hi im back. I'll kiss one of you platonically

>>81477688
Kiss my dick platonically.

>>81477568
Are you a woman or a man, guy?

>>81478273
im a boy
md8mj

Same I quit my job for mental health reasons and turned to full time drug dealing living life in the fast lane for the past 6 weeks. Today I was so fucking stressed and panicked that I just said enough is enough, I took 40mg of diazepam drank some vodka and hid the apps I use to deal from my phone. The stress of dealing drugs is unbelievable and you wouldn't believe the running costs of even just a tiny small timer like me. Just keeping my car going is like 120 in petrol a day. Plus all the other shit I need to buy - bags scales food containers etc etc. All this random shit adds up. Plus constantly detailing my car to keep cop levels down. So I need to make all this money, just to cover the running costs of my life (food petrol rent insurance etc), AND THEN make cash on top of that for this to be even worth it. I'm cashing out these past 2-3 days idealiiy bring in maybe 1.5-> 2k for the last of my supplies. But then all up its a joke. I quit my job with 4.8k, I got 9.3k in the bank. Over 6 weeks. I made 800 a week roughly at my old job. Almost all of that was spent on couldn't save. But still this was not worth it. The risks I put myself in. I literally need benzos to do this and then got barred out and motorbike crashed and broke my finger. I've become hardened and it hasn't been long. I got weapons now - sharpened screwdrivers, tazer, clawhammer in my car. I'm getting serious moral problems selling destructive pills to vulnerable people. So much of me just wants to throw my drug bag off a cliff, and then myself. But I got a g of no.4 pure heroin I brought for myself as a present to IV (not at once lol). But I take suboxone everyday because I was addicted to tramadol and just being lazy putting off my addiction withdrawal. So now I'm addict to subs. Not much like 2mg a day. Bit it's annoying cos want to do the heroin. I am so tired. Just so utterly physically and spiritually drained. Yet every time I lay down can't sit still I can't relax can't switch my mind off