I miss my best friend.

He was a republican fag. I mean that when I say "fag". I am not tossing that term around. He was a flaming rightwing closeted rightwinger. It was an in-joke in my hometown that everyone knew he was a closeted homosexual even though he was all harshly republican and homophobic.

He would only date girls from other states so he barely ever had to see them. Lol.

Anyway I didn't care about that since I am all leftist and stuff anyway. And I knew him since I was a child and had lots of good times with him. Not in any kinda gay way just in a normal way since I am straight.

So anyway eventually in my 20s I just had tough times and then we grew apart. And I sort of resent him for being such a stuck up rightwing elitist that he didnt hang by me when I was having my tough time. I mean not like I need someone to hold my hand but you know, you could keep in touch instead of just being like "hurrrr ur a loser now so im not gonna hang out with you!!!!"

I still just miss hanging out with him though and a lot of them time when I'm just chilling by myself I'll think about jokes we'd be making together now about things.

So yeah IDK just something I am thinking about.

And there was a big class difference between us too since he was from a rich family and I was from a poor single mom. And that always made a massive divide between the 2 of us anyhow. Anyways, I know I'll never ever speak to him.