A conundrum
I've been suicidal for the past few years, I feel completely numb to life. I feel like I'm controlling a game character, and I want to quit. Life doesn't feel real anymore, I feel as though I am floating trough a void.
But I cannot go to a therapist, I cannot talk to a psych, I can't take medication, I can't talk to anybody. Due to the fact that I am training to be an officer in the army, I would be kicked out and lose my dream job, then I wouldn't have anything left to live for as its my only dream. I have always loved military equipment, history and strategy games, its been my passion.
This is my one space I can be open with my thoughts, I am with like minded people. I like to discussing life with you guys, thanks pals.
But I cannot go to a therapist, I cannot talk to a psych, I can't take medication, I can't talk to anybody. Due to the fact that I am training to be an officer in the army, I would be kicked out and lose my dream job, then I wouldn't have anything left to live for as its my only dream. I have always loved military equipment, history and strategy games, its been my passion.
This is my one space I can be open with my thoughts, I am with like minded people. I like to discussing life with you guys, thanks pals.
