Anon can i please try to advice you or help in a way...? please tell me what worries you.

Your esl worries me

>>81486531 (OP)
HELLO vent anon there you are again!! you can't run from me this time

I ended a two-week relationship with this message and I regret it, I feel sad and I miss her.

I just ended a week-long relationship with this message: God, she was right with every word she wrote, but I completely ignored her. We started dating right after you ended a year-and-a-half relationship. It's understandable that you didn't want to be alone, but honestly, I don't want to be used to fill a void. I got my hopes up about you and thought we could build something together; I really did. I'm disappointed with the situation. I think it's best if we break up. I also think you shouldn't do things you "don't feel like doing," like seeing me. Was it really hard? What do you think of the message? I feel really bad now. How do you get over a breakup?

>>81486538
Yes. I hope I can learn more and will do. I wish you good day Mike.

>>81486543
hello anon. i hope you are doing good. hope you are better than before. anything new?

>>81486599
>anything new?
yes i fell asleep yesterday wondering if you would want to play minecraft with me

>>81486599
Come over and I'll teach you some tricks on how to pronounce your vowels correctly

>>81486564
anon i cant say much for i dont know your situation. but i can say that please you need not to worry. i know you will find someone better and i know that a 2 week relationship was not that serious. anon you will manage and i belive you can with genuine effort and search find someone to partner with long-term.

>>81486619
That is so nice of you and kind in a way i cannot explain. I would love to play games with you anon. I am mostly into games like dark souls or yugioh. you are too gentle anon its comforting in a way. i wish this place had an official way of meeting friends.

>>81486632
MIKE??? MORE LIKE MIKE ROTCH HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA WHAT A STUPID RETARD NAME HAHAHAHHAH

>>81486662
>i wish this place had an official way of meeting friends
do you have friends, vent anon? if you had friends, how would you like them to be?

>>81486665
It's amazing you think that is my real name

>>81486665
lmao man that's a nice one

>>81486665
You see it's all in how you shape and flick your tongue

>>81486673
ITS AMAZING YOUR REAL NAME IS MIKE HAHAHAHA WHAT A STUPID NAME AND EVEN IF IT ISNT YOU STILL CHOSE MIKE ON HERE HAHAHAHHAHA

>>81486531 (OP)
My dick hurts. Can you please kiss it better?

>>81486680
would you like to have a taste of my cream?? or maybe your other end would like a taste of it?

>>81486632
Thank you Mike. You seem nice!
I wish we could build friendships around here.

>>81486665
Please be nice to other anons.

>>81486668
Yes I do. but irl friends never truly know you. i can never be comfortable or myself around people who are pretending to be something. its like everyone is wearing a mask to fit in now. I dont want to force anything on friends and i dont like it when they force their masks on me. it makes me feel so alone sometimes. to never know the person you have been friends with for 8+ years.

>>81486708
>to never know the person you have been friends with for 8+ years.
this is very scary!! but, i think there are ways to know if people are being genuine. in my case, i try to notice the little things, the gestures. are they kind to people they don't know? do they care if a friend is left behind? do they try to help those around them, even if it brings them no benefits?
and, why would you be afraid of being yourself? you are nice

>>81486531 (OP)
due to certain factors today I don't feel as empty
thanks for your service anon, if there's genuine care behind your posts, thank you

>>81486708
Add me and I'll help you practice
FromSunToMoon

>>81486691
You are funny anon. please if yours hurt apply a cream or do a clean wash using soap. it could be your skin or others issues. please get it checked anon. I hope pain goes away and you be good.

>>81486740
Thank you Anon you are again so kind. but yes for some reason anon i somehow made friends with the "jocks" of my school and they still carry the school mentality with them even after 8 years or so. and my other friend is too scared to move with his life and do anything about himself. Anon i realised while typing this its a mistake to not look beyond your friend circle for new friends. like beyond school or uni. I dont know why I attracted those people to my life. I am scared of making online friends because some are creepy and I grow a liking to 4chan which made me feel stuck too. i know this place is very misunderstood. im sorry for this long message.

>>81486749
it brings me great happiness to know i helped somehow anon. thank you so much. i do genuinely care anon. if i couldnt succeed much in my life i wish for others to be. please take much much care anon. i know im not the best nor i give good advices but i can offer you and share feelings with you. i hope to always see you okay anon.

>>81486756
Thank you Mike. Please dont change your tag and i will add you in the upcoming days for i have saved it. hope you are doing well Mike. Any plans for midnight today?

>>81486531 (OP)
My horrible year is finally over (I work in schools so I think in academic years more than calendar years). Now I have to figure out how to use this summer wisely. I have a lot of work to do and not much time to do it.

>>81486817
I'm worried about my new job, I'm worried I won't get into the grad school I want, I'm worried that I have less money than I did at this time last year, I'm worried that I'm not really making any progress in my creative work or my hobbies, and as always, I'm worried that I'm single.

>>81486531 (OP)
>what worries you
OH everything
but i will only talk about the thing that worries me the most
Idk if this is normal but currently my relationship with my best friend is absolute dog shit
they changed all of a sudden and started to reply late , dry responses , not share everything as they used to do and basically everything changed it's as if they shifted to someone else.
which clearly has made me get so fucking confused and i asked them multiple times if there's anything wrong but no clear answer like they don't even admit that they have changed or anything which left me wondering if maybe im the one who's crazy here but idk , btw they left me on seen yesterday so we didn't text today and this is SO unusual because in we have been texting daily for almost a year and a half
So im sensing it might be the end of our friendship, because this has been happening for a good while ,which to me is a nightmare anon i love this person so much i can't lose my only friend.

>>81486770
>i somehow made friends with the "jocks" of my school and they still carry the school mentality with them even after 8 years or so
this is not good. you got a nice mindset, you like helping people, but some people just don't want to help themselves. and, in the end, you can't help a person that doesn't want to help themselves.
and yes, you're absolutely right. 4chan is scary, but from time to time you find decent people. i didn't know you were open to online friendships! do you want to be friends?

>>81486806
ah thank you anon, that's very kind so have a song
maybe you enjoy it maybe you don't or maybe you just don't have the energy to listen to some bullshit but i will still think that sharing songs like this is a good gesture, you don't have many more options when you're just text
https://youtu.be/4EnOC4ufeN0?si=h7-x-n9PrlTcqjiv
proper electronics don't come to mind right now so i will stick with classic garage

>>81486817
>>81486825
Anon please know that eventually everything will pass like it used to be. i want to be practical here and ask you to focus first on building your life regarding education and finance. its most important for everything will continue after. anon do you study or work? can you work a part time? anon life is very cruel and requires much effort unfortunately. its a battle but it will end and you will strike last anon.

>>81486841
anon this friend means so much to you im sad to see you like this. can you visit them irl? can you tell me you are worried about them without being weird about it? anon maybe they have something up. anon dont lose hope and dont worry much. im sure he has an issue or maybe he is depressed? sometimes people get bored of texting. try to up the game by voice chat or call?

>>81486531 (OP)
my boyfriend walked in on me masturbating (to porn) and he's got it in his head that I don't find him attractive and whatever I've told him doesn't matter, he's been really stubborn about it

>>81486841
I was in this situation before, but on the opposite side. She was the best person I have ever met. I should have talked to her, but it was so demotivating since it felt like she wasn't really putting effort into her responses. She also took a month long break from talking before and didn't tell me what was wrong which was also super demotivating. She blocked me and I still wonder if she is doing OK. I'm thinking of making some sort of alt account to add her and discuss it.

>>81486910
>focus first on building your education and finance
I'm centering my career and money, but I don't want to put my life on hold. I want to balance this with the other domains of my life, but sometimes it is not so easy. I've encountered a ton of expenses recently.
>study or work?
I work now. I just finished up a job at a school, I have a new job starting in August. I hope to start my Master's in August of 26 after I finish my next job.
>work a part time
I actually got a part time job a few weeks ago, but it feel through. Now that I have some time since my job ended I'm going to look for another one.

>>81486910
THEY DONT FUCKING COMMUNICATE i feel like im talking to myself they make everything confusing and reply with shitty vague answers that don't help , i would be ok with it if they are depressed but they're not they're treating me like shit and changed as if they hate me now or something
like i get what you mean maybe they're bored of texting but does this "bored of texting" package come with dry and dull responses with some mean words and ignoring my texts?
idk man i will probably not text them for a couple of days and wait for them to text when they feel like it
and yes they mean the world to me and i don't want another friend i want them but im sick of having to fix everything myself they aren't helping at all

>>81486941
yeah my friend is sort of like yours , never explains anything , absolutely no effort in response , and as i said we have been texting daily for a year and a half but the only time we stopped was when she disappeared for a little more than a week and came back with an excuse that doesn't really make sense but i was glad we got back to texting so i didn't care.

>>81486850
Thank you for understanding kind anon. i would love to be your friend and build something with you. have you any good experience with online friends anon? anyone from here?

>>81486861
you remind me of the anons on /mu/. thank you for sharing anon your taste is very unique really. you used to play music in your life?

>>81486921
im sorry that happened to you anon. its very awkward really. anon please know that its okay for these stuff happen but your bf might been hurt by it. can you please try to explain to him or show him that you really love him? i know you do because you are worried about him which shows that you are nice and gentle. anon please talk and communicate. relationships die with weak communication.

>>81486921
so you're telling me he doesn't watch porn ? it's possible but come on who on earth doesn't watch porn lol
but seriously this is an upsetting situation anon i hope things get sorted out for you soon
also i think it's obvious but im not OP
im not as nice as OP

>>81487067
>i would love to be your friend and build something with you
do you have any contact info?
>have you any good experience with online friends anon? anyone from here?
eh, i have had both good and bad experiences but the good experiences outweigh the bad ones :)

>>81486531 (OP)
I never had the chance to get a girlfriend. I'm 31 right now.
I have tried in the past, but no avail.
I work seven days a week and Im tired everyday. Just yesterday I saw couples walking with each other both of them with their arms wrapped together. After seeing that, I came to the conclusion that I'm boring and I hate trying to be understood by other people. I always ruminate on certain people that treated me like shit and how it molded me on how what kind of person I am now. I try everyday to be a nice person at least, but often I'd feel like that pretty much all I can be. Nothing much is there for me, but meh...

>>81487084
>it's possible but come on who on earth doesn't watch porn lol
by the way, i'm not op or that anon, but i don't watch porn either

>>81486980
this is devastating. im really sorry anon. i dont know what to do and situations like this makes me sad myself. anon i truly wish from the bottom of my heart for you to be happy. i looked up articles and studies before answering you trying to give a good advice. from my simple understanding the best approach is not to spam text for 3 days or so and then give an honest message going with explaining how you feel and why is this happening. anon human psychology is hard to understand and this could be anything. dont make yourself look worthless to her or too cold. anon im really sorry and i hope we find a solution :(

>>81486531 (OP)
im autistic and ugly and i have no friends and life isnt getting b\etter and people are very mean today i went outside for the first time in a week and some juvenilse were making fun of how i look and i cried and i am still crying i want this day to be over

>>81487133
how so and we're literally talking on 4chan where there's no inch on the screen without porn?
im amazed to be honest or envy you even i wish i can stop my porn addiction

>>81486531 (OP)
Im bulldyke foid and Im going to be rooming with a normie heterosexual foid at college and I fucking hate straight wombyn because they are disgusted by me because I stare at their tits and ass uncontrollably because Im retarded and the idea of having to live with one temporarily makes me want to kill myself. What the fuck do I do vent anon. Move in day is going to be hell when I walk in and she will see her roommate is a tall fat dyke who has a sexy anime girl Dakimakura in her bed

>>81487187
>there's no inch on the screen without porn?
i take my time to hide those threads but they don't do anything for me anyway

>>81487145
it's alright anon thank you very very much seriously i appreciate you so much and yeah there's nothing we can do it's in her hands not mine , thanks again you're very nice i love you

>>81487123
yes i made my new discord but sometimes im too scared or hurt to drop it here cuz of last time people kept harassing me and people here try to track everything for some reason idk why they never forget and do this all in the name of being funny or bullying. all what i did trying to make friends and trying to be too nice makes people sometimes feel weird i understand and im sorry but i have not a drop of bad intention to anyone here. i just want to relate to someone. im sorry for anyone i weirded out im not a fed or anything...

>>81487125
anon please know that there is something for you. please dont think like that. i know you wont like what im about to say but 31 is still young. this is not your life not the end. anon join a club earn more money groom yourself and be social online or offline. experiment with new stuff. see what will happen if you joined a new circle or used a dating app or irl club with same interest.

>>81487155
anon please dont cry im so sorry. people are so judgemental it hurts anon. if people literally laughed at you because of how you look just like that then its beyond cruel. but anon please fight. fight those people by improving your looks and just a bit of body and skin care and a new haircut with okay clothes. giving up on looks will make those evil people win anon. i can tell how much of a genuine person you are because you are sensitive like me. im sorry anon. but please fight for yourself. i will fight with you and im here for you anon. i love you anon.

>>81487194
anon please dont worry much. i would try play everything with humour and be chill. you and your interest are okay anon and you dont sound weird or anything. why call yourself stupid or fat or anything. anon please take it easy. i know you dont like what i say and think im silly but i know that you are what you give anon. give people good vibes and be chill with a smile and humour be not cringe or awkward. just be yourself without going 100% because you still dont know the person and focus here for you really dont know who you are with. maybe your roommate is going to be the weird one anon. life is very weird anon. nevertheless please dont worry and i recommend stress relief with herbal pills.

>>81487201
i love you too anon and im so happy to help. i truly wish everything goes well. please know that i genuinely pray for you and everyone here. please worry less and fight stress and anxiety. you mean everything to me anon. i love you lots.

>>81487279
>im too scared or hurt to drop it here cuz of last time people kept harassing me and people here try to track everything for some reason idk why they never forget
wait why? i mean, okay... i understand. we can talk about it someday!!. i'll drop an email: throw_away.ree at proton.me
i don't think you are a fed, don't worry :)

>>81487279
i try anon to fix but you cant rearange skull structure nevertheless this post made my day even if you will one day leave r9k and i will never see you again and be reminded about you and cry because i am sensitive you are everythign i aspire to be

A bittersweet vent, but after five years I can finally say that I'm completely over my ex. It's like she never even existed at this point... Life is far from perfect but it's now actually tolerable without the cancer that was her infecting every waking moment of my consciousness. I need to make up for all the years I've been moping around... It's gonna be so hard but I'm ready.

>>81487067
>you used to play music in your life?
I know a couple things about audio engineering and synthesis, I really like that type of stuff and I made some tunes in the past, lately i haven't made much cuz i'm just not in the mood

i keep all the stuff i make for myself tho
glad you asked

do you think i ought to be myself, or the person i want to be?
i feel like i'm torn between two very different ways of living: in one i'm a hedonistic, egoistic, greedy, ambitious person. this is what i see as "myself". this is what makes me happy.
the other, is a ascetic, selfless, frugal, fulfilled person. this is a hard buden to bear and i keep failing to live this way, but i feel it's the right path.
i feel there can be no compromise between the two, it is either one or the other. i know for sure i'm someone who wants to live an extreme ideal life, even if im not sure what that life is.
if i'm too vague about it please inquire further.

>>81486841
I am in this exact situation, it is pure hell.

>>81487133
I stopped watching porn when I found out it bothered someone and it put things in perspective for me