Sometimes I wonder if something happened to me when I was a kid. I don't remember an inciting incident ever happening to me, just the fallout of one. Delusion and compulsions as a kid, paranoia, anxiety, etc. Its lessened now, I'm 18, but I still despise and fear intimacy and sex, have bad dreams sometimes.
Wish I could find the reason if any.
>>81489050Sorry shit happened to you for it to get that bad, most would suggest a therapist but probably not the best for your case if I had to guess? Might help to tell someone loving that you really trust to feel seen at least.
>>81489114Ignorance. A lot of you.