Anonymous
6/15/2025, 6:27:01 PM No.81501447
>watch YT videos of normies
>try to avoid being cringe or talking about anything cringe or unfamiliar to people
>talk to myself, record myself talking and try not to sound too cringe
>try to wear fashionable clothes and not be too offputting
>normies are talking about something
>get the idea in my head I should stop being anti-social and talk
>say something interesting about the topic
>their response is only "yea" "ok" "*thumbs up*", saying the same thing whenever I say something or they just ignore me
>sometimes if I dwell too long they ask me "do you want something?" if not outright ask me to leave
>this happens 100% of the time
There's no hope is there. It seems so easy for everyone else to talk and get along even with complete strangers, but with me it is like they magically know I am not normal and they have to exclude me and treat me like I'm a walking pile of shit they can't get rid of, they somehow pick it up, they just know I was completely alone as a child and a teenager and don't have 10000 hours of socializing with my peers. Now I can only scrape together 1 or 2 hours of awkward socializing like this. It is like everyone else is a master pianist while I'm an amateur, and they won't let me used the piano.
To make matter worse I have absolutely zero interest in pop culture and contemporary fashionable music, it is an ordeal trying to learn enough about it so I can participate in a conversation. Mass media keeps creating these stereotypes of "nerds" and they are always the villain, always turning out to be a serial killer with the worst most petty traits imaginable. I can't even point this out or talk about it, because apparently it is a "victimhood mentality", I'm just asking to be included in our society like everyone else. How is it "entitlement" when I want what everyone else has? I am faced with being alone for the rest of my life for fuck's sake and I am not even asking for anything, just asking you to stop ostracizing and hating me for no reason.
>try to avoid being cringe or talking about anything cringe or unfamiliar to people
>talk to myself, record myself talking and try not to sound too cringe
>try to wear fashionable clothes and not be too offputting
>normies are talking about something
>get the idea in my head I should stop being anti-social and talk
>say something interesting about the topic
>their response is only "yea" "ok" "*thumbs up*", saying the same thing whenever I say something or they just ignore me
>sometimes if I dwell too long they ask me "do you want something?" if not outright ask me to leave
>this happens 100% of the time
There's no hope is there. It seems so easy for everyone else to talk and get along even with complete strangers, but with me it is like they magically know I am not normal and they have to exclude me and treat me like I'm a walking pile of shit they can't get rid of, they somehow pick it up, they just know I was completely alone as a child and a teenager and don't have 10000 hours of socializing with my peers. Now I can only scrape together 1 or 2 hours of awkward socializing like this. It is like everyone else is a master pianist while I'm an amateur, and they won't let me used the piano.
To make matter worse I have absolutely zero interest in pop culture and contemporary fashionable music, it is an ordeal trying to learn enough about it so I can participate in a conversation. Mass media keeps creating these stereotypes of "nerds" and they are always the villain, always turning out to be a serial killer with the worst most petty traits imaginable. I can't even point this out or talk about it, because apparently it is a "victimhood mentality", I'm just asking to be included in our society like everyone else. How is it "entitlement" when I want what everyone else has? I am faced with being alone for the rest of my life for fuck's sake and I am not even asking for anything, just asking you to stop ostracizing and hating me for no reason.
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