Do you regret being the quiet kid during your teenage years?

>>81502969 (OP)
I didn't have a choice, even if I could go back in time and tell myself not to in the most convincing way possible, it wouldn't happen. With all of the abuse I was under, nobody could have changed my mind.
It took several heavy doses of psychedelics for me to finally break out of my shell in adulthood.

>>81502969 (OP)
Everyone used to always ask why I was so quiet and I never had an answer but that added to my character I guess.

>>81502969 (OP)
No, I don't regret that. What I regret is dating someone I didn't like.

>>81502969 (OP)
It's hard to change when you had social anxiety, best i could have done would be getting drunk 24/7

>>81502969 (OP)
no dudee being the quiet kid i actually learned a lot i was just a sort of no stakes observer and it taught me a lot about human interpersonal dynamics it didnt stun me at all

>>81502969 (OP)
Not at all, if I couldn't have been born someone else I don't think I would have changed anything about my life so far. All wishes to be smarter, more attractive, less mentally ill are essentially wishes to be someone else and thus fantastical because they've made me what I am

>>81502969 (OP)
i don't regret it
trying to be extroverted when you don't have the looks/charisma/mental capacity for it and turning into a clown/bully victim is worse than being a quiet kid

>>81502969 (OP)
Sometimes I feel bad for all the things I probably missed. But what I regret more is not doing anything interesting or productive during those years.

>>81502969 (OP)
Nah, it was bound to happen. Had a fucked up home life that compounded with being the bullying at school spiraled me into full blown schizoid introversion. It was necessary for survival. Being quiet meant not being picked on as much. It also helped with avoiding confrontation at home. Just say nothing and retreat to my room. I can't be hurt if I never open up.

>>81503021
How did you date someone as a quiet kid?
>>81503044
>>81503070
People weren't weirded out by you just standing around them?

not really
the only bad part about it was the teachers would target me and have me answer all the questions because sitting in the back and being quiet is...LE BAD or something

>>81503131
>How did you date someone as a quiet kid?
She said that I was cute but I didn't date her until months later

>>81503131
I wore closed back headphones at school and read JJBA on my phone whenever there was downtime for the first semester and never went back after a bad bout of insomnia where I would show up late every day to a place I didn't like being. My guardians let me do it, I still live with them

>>81503152
>She said that I was cute
In what context? Was she a clasmate? Did she just walk up to you? How did it take months before you were dating?
>>81503167
Lol I had bad sleeping issues as a teenager too.
You never went back? Does that mean you don't have a degree? How old are you now?

I should add that people probably were weirded out by me, but I was so checked out that I didn't *really* care to prove them wrong. I got the distinct impression that my counselor was worried about my isolation and that other kids got a "school shooter" vibe from me, but as an adult people still think I'm weird and there's nothing I can do about that. At best you just avoid jestering and becoming a novelty to mess with or the butt of any jokes, but people will gossip about anything and everything.

>>81503209
Oh, I'm talking about high school. I got my diploma from a local community college program after taking the test essentially blind and getting a 96 or so, they wanted me to enroll there for an AA but I never did. Kind of scary that there are people walking around that can't just do whatever sophomore stuff was on that test when I didn't even make it that far. I'm 22.

>>81502969 (OP)
Nah, I was cute enough that many girls were into me. My problem was being pretty oblivious to girls liking me, but still managed to get a gf.

Forced to be the quiet kid because i was ugly

no because everyone else was retarded teens

>>81503283
What made you "cute"?
Did you ever talk to those girls before they went after you or was it purely your looks that attracted them? How would they come onto you?

>>81503209
>In what context?
I don't know I think she said me begin quiet would mean I only focus one her when if we start dating
> Was she a clasmate?
yes
> Did she just walk up to you? How did it take months before you were dating?
I didn't want to date anyone because I was so self-absorbed. It only happened because of my school festival when her friend told me that she found me cute, and that's when I decided to ask her out.

>>81503293
Cute face, cute butt, blue eyes, some girls would grope me, others would tell me they wanted to fuck me, some would run up to me and hug every time they saw me, most were a little more subtle and have their friend tell me they liked me.

>>81503406
Were you tall or small?
Like I said were these girls you would talk to or was it more like catcalling?

>>81503286
>Forced to be the quiet kid because i was ugly
sry

>>81502969 (OP)
I wasn't the quiet kid so no.

>>81502969 (OP)
Maybe. I kinda wish I was even quieter, but at the same time, I know I permanently ruined my already retarded social skills. Now, I have no desire to get involved in human relations, but I also don't think I could understand other people well enough to get involved even if I did want to.

As a bonus, nobody has been rude to me since middle school -- not even once, or subtly -- because I apparently have an edgy vibe. I have been told people feared I was going to shoot up a school several times, and others have said they're afraid of me (not to me, of course, but I found out). It's kind of funny, actually. I'm totally harmless and have no ill will towards anyone, but being a bit weird and reserved instantly makes people respect you in this way.