horniness is like an altered state of consciousness, every normal thought you had when sober about your own dignity and individuality melts like it wasn't ever real when you are horny and especially while you're fapping. i am completely different, like straight up another person while i'm fapping, i can't muster any of those feelings without the heavy hit of horniness.

for example i constantly channel suicidal thoughts and even say out loud how much i want to be killed by a hot girl, but nothing even close to that is part of my non-horny life (i fap less than once a day on average)

>>81507506 (OP)
Yes when I'm horny I want nothing more than to feminize and have my bussy filled with seed but afterwards I get hit with the biggest form of PNC and remember I want a cute foid to love and hold. So I assume getting a gf will fix this.

yeah

i would do unthinkable things when horny especially on stimulants

never stimfap it'll ruin you

>>81507575
don't stims make you more aggressive? for me nothing compares to the feeling of melting into nothing over a hot girl and her ego, i always fantasize about her smiling at me with that smug superior look while i slowly lose consciousness and black out

>>81507575
i knew a meth head who would spend quite literally all day jerking off with multiple monitors while on stims
for multiple days at once with no break
some crazy shit

>>81507506 (OP)
Missed opportunity to punch her in the throat while she had her eyes closed.

>>81507506 (OP)
1) Yeah I relate OP, especially when high or on a drug too. It feels like a different person sometimes, I think there is a neurological reason for this, I think your brain actually does create a seperate, horny personality to manage the reproductive system.

2) That girl in the WEBM looks like the last crush I had, but she got knocked up by some other guy who left her and then immediately jumped to a new dude.

But she looked like that girl. I wish I was the one who knocked her up.

>>81507611
its not like that rlly, melting away sounds nice but its more like gooning aggressively while being very alert

>>81507617
surprisingly common from what i hear
im lucky (or unlucky) enough to have a refractory period so that stops me from going all day

>>81507506 (OP)
>Expect to see a girl being strangled
>Its just bullshit lame normalcore shit.

>>81507728
she does weird shit with pussy needles or something but i didn't save those videos. i only care about her facial expressions there

>>81507575
gooning with crushed up adderall dripping down my nose was one of my most cherished memories

>>81507742
What's her name? How do I find more videos like this and from her?

>>81507506 (OP)
I can't say my personality changes, not even on stimulants, as >>81507575 warns. I'm able to hold onto my reasoning, for example, but I'm also slowly being tortured by my urges, and they make me a great deal more likely to feel depressed over being alone.
It's a huge distraction from my work and physical fitness, and nofap does not make it any better. The torture continues until I find an outlet, and I find it's less likely to dominate my mind if I fap to 2D material (especially loli or furry shit) or gay porn. Ironically, the more degenerate my porn is, the less likely I am to act in a degenerate fashion in my daily life, such as leering at foids, or skipping out on a productive activity out of heartbreak.
The less I fantasize about a new wholesome relationship with a real adult woman, the less power lust has over me.

>>81507506 (OP)
I agree. Asides from drinking every single serious regret or embarrassing moment in my life came from being horny. I truly believe you become posessed by a demon. Think about it, you do insrly depraved, degenerate and dangerous things when youre horny. Then you but and think to yourself "holy fuck did I really do that? Jesus I need to get a blood test".

This is why Im volcel, like alcohol I cant handle being horny. It makes me do insanely stupid things. One tim while drunk and horny and let some street walker give me head in a back alleyway. I have no idea how I didnt get stabbed or contract HIV. Another time I went to a brothel and spent 6 hours and $3.5k there and all I did was eat the chicks ass hole and cuddle with her.

>>81507506 (OP)
White people are so damn weird man I wish I had brown friends