i tried. i graduated. i applied to so many jobs. i applied to university. its all just so tiring. through none of it i ever got anywhere. i never learned to socialize or be funny or how to be happy.
at this point, all i want is to die with someone i love. maybe not even die with them. they can move on. but someone who can accept how i am and that i'm not meant for this world. who can love me for the short time im left here; who i can feel assured that they'll be okay after i'm gone.
i enjoy my hobbies. whenever there's a woman engaged in one, she's there with someone else. there's no point.
i try dating apps. the only girls that match with me are thousands of miles away. the last 3 have been in indonesia for fucks sake. i live in texas.
do i just suck it up and kill myself already?

>>81508156 (OP)
keep enjoying your hobbies. what are they?
keep trying the dating apps.
keep hopes up, don't kill yourself.

>>81508156 (OP)
Graduated what? What major? How many likes do you get?

post like these make me feel a little bit better about dropping out, doing drugs with stupid people and working shit jobs.

>>81508170
rock climbing, cycling, hiking, camping, etc to name stuff outside. other than that vidya anime etc. not gonna find girls like that.
>>81508178
graduated high school

>>81508254
plenty of girls like those outdoor hobbies anon. you need to look harder.

>>81508178
i tried duolicious, tinder and a smaller app. five on tinder, about the same (in my area) on the smaller one. i've only been ghosted on duo.
on tinder i got added by two girls that were friends which worried me and made me anxious so i just blocked them both. the smaller app i've talked to one girl for a few days; she wants kids and stuff though, and i dont know how to break it to her that i cant provide that.
>>81508263
you can say that but the reality has turned out differently for me
i only see other guys on bikes
whenever theres a girl at my climbing gym theyre there with a boyfriend/husband, male relative, or big group of friends. its not like theres many people out on hiking trails.

>>81508286
>you can say that but the reality has turned out differently for me
>i only see other guys on bikes
>whenever theres a girl at my climbing gym theyre there with a boyfriend/husband, male relative, or big group of friends. its not like theres many people out on hiking trails.
stop being a negative nancy and keep trying. girls are out there. have more self confidence.

>>81508263
Women only like when men do those hobbies so they can get fucked by ethnic minorities. I've never seen a black man go for a hike.

>>81508286
>>81508292
join groups online that do hiking or outdoor stuff. youll find a girl anon.

>>81508156 (OP)
get the job before you get the woman don't ask

Healthcare. You can apply all over. They got security, jannies, kitchens, butt wipers, blood drawers, guy who puts stickers on broke machines and says they work again(he only put a sticker on it),unit secretary, data entry, coding and billing, call brokies and try to collect payment owed.
Phlebotomy seems like it'd be chill. Dracula down the hall taking your samples at 0400, patient starts talking and you quickly say I'll tell your nurse. Housekeeping too if you're only cleaning discharged rooms.
It's largely Ai proof, pay is kind of OK, and even rural towns will have a nursing home or mental hospital. I did psych tech for two years and it was nice other than making next to nothing. I'd bring in movies for everyone, I'd read or watch twilight zone when not doing patient stuff.