Am I really that worthless of a human being that literal abusers are a better fit for a relationship than I am?
What the fuck am I supposed to do? I get high and drunk to escape these thoughts but they only come back worse.
why why why why why why why

Some of us just aren't meant to have relationships anon, it's better to just accept it.

>>81511335
I know but I kinda broke down today, I'm tired of being treated like a nuisance everywhere I go, it's like people just sniff it out and treat me accordingly despite the fact I did nothing objectively wrong.
Anyways I took a xanax now so I'll either calm down or be too unconscious to feel sad (not a suicide attempt just self-medicating)

I feel you, somewhat similar but I can't get a job because I'm socially retarded and autistic + chronic pain. Really does a number on you mentally.

>>81511468
I'm watching this true crime doc rn. This army soldier from Alaska felt lonely in like 08, so he dated this 34 year old single mother online. They met up and got married. He was so happy. Come to find out, the girls brother murders him and they literally drive home with him. He eventually gets caught, but still a man died trying to fight that loneliness. He got married, but it was into the wrong family. Sometimes anon being alone is better than being married or dating a dangerous family.

It got worse. So basically, his wife planned the murder with her brother, because she was in charge of his finances and he eventually felt like she was using him (which she was) and he wanted a divorce. So she tried to kill him multiple times. First posion and eventually culminating in murder. Stay safe yaul, be careful who yaul date, love ain't no game, but nice people get played everyday.

>>81511214 (OP)
yes anon. manipulative and abusive people are more of a potential partner to women than you and me.
its the truth.
its sad, isn't it?

>>81511214 (OP)
There only thing you should do and that is rape all the foids