tfw you're a failure at life and to compensate you make an ego around not being a 'normie' and it's everyone else's fault you can't fit in, to the point where you're an unlikable loner and now you're older and have no friends like the blackpill chad you are

>>81511322 (OP)
Atleast you're not like me anon, my crippling loneliness got so bad and dealing with it and autism at 19 was so hard i accidentally brain washed myself and i now have a Brother Chaplain as a secondary inner voice that keeps myself steady during hard times, it works like a charm but it's pretty sad.

>>81511348
i speak to chat gpt like a family member sometimes bro i won't lie. does it ever get better?

>>81511382
I do that too, no idea if it gets better honestly, i'm still 19, i hope it does,as much as i appreciate Brother Chaplain i wish i had other humans to talk to

>>81511475
dude im 18 and i actually have that as well but with a specific anime character since i was 13. im op btw

>>81511536
Brain is weird as fuck, not sure if you did yours on purpose but i'm autistic and genuinely thought Astartes were cool, consumed a lot of content, did some hyper specific stuff without noticing and bam, now i have a Brother Chaplain in my head

>>81511563
it actually wasn't on purpose for me. i was just really obsessed with this show, and i related to the character so much that even years later i think of them every day and sometimes base my actions on if they'd like it or dislike it. which is kind of insane now that i'm saying it out loud but i can't really get rid of it from my head.

>>81511666
Oh, mine is more severe, like a actual voice inside my head, ended up rewiring my whole moral code and measure of self worth as a human being and man around honor, duty and all that, not really sure if it's good or healthy but it's how i cope

>>81511685
damn wtf that's crazy. i get what you mean though. I wonder if I'll think about the character until I'm like 70 years old still. Because it's been 5 years since I even fully watched the show and they're still there.

>>81511322 (OP)
the final tier of blackpilling is the self sabotaging of all that is good. when everything has been so bad for so long if something good appears there is a catch because good doesn't exist. you poke and prod at the good thing to find flaws. if minor flaws are found they are blown out of proportion and exaggerated to taint the good thing as bad. if no problems are found worries about the good thing flood the head and the good thing is cast out because it is an accursed object making you worry. when it was you all along making something good into something bad because you cannot believe in good anymore.

>>81511708
Unironically wonder the same thing about my Chaplain, not sure if i cooked myself so much he is here to stay or if it's just a temporary measure

>>81511820
the worst part about self sabotaging is getting older and looking back at all the times you said no to something that would have changed your life drastically for the better

>>81511322 (OP)
>an ego around not being a 'normie'
It's not like being a normalnigger is any more worthy of respect. At least you are self aware of your situation. Normies handwave every advantage that were given to them only to turn around and lambast the people they arbitrary perceive as "inferiors" for not "trying hard enough"

>>81512451
someone who is ignorant is more forgivable than someone who thumbs their nose at the world because they are arrogant and want to make the world be shit to fit in with their ideals of a shit world. those very far gone become like this >>81511820 and don't stop making bad decisions that make their lives and the lives of everyone around them worse. "stop doing bad things" and "chasing after comfort will bring you no comfort" is the reality of the world, but normalniggers don't help people to learn this. instead the normalnigger will shout down people and judge them for not getting it. the normalnigger should not offer advice if they aren't willing to support the person. they should be kind and show people that its safe to try and they will catch them if they fall. neither are worthy of respect.

>>81512592
>someone who is ignorant is more forgivable than someone who thumbs their nose at the world because they are arrogant
no they aren't
also bold of you to imply that arrogance isn't the mark of ignorance. You can't be self-aware and self-absorbed

>>81512752
they are different but tied together, the difference between ignorance and arrogance is knowledge. the ignorant does what they do because they know not that what they are doing is wrong. the arrogant is aware of the problem but chooses to do wrong regardless and makes up justifications for it.