After being away from the bottle and weed for a significant time I realized I am will never be and can never be an extrovert. I'm also extremely high inhibition and shy. Yeah this is my personality. The worst possible combination of all time. Combine it with being extremely sensitive to everything and it's over.

>>81513574 (OP)
Yep, can't change your personality. That was my worst fear about getting sober - every other person I know who got sober went back to this baseline level of confidence and personability that they always inherently had. I knew there was nothing like that for me. A year and some change of sobriety has confirmed it. This is it. This is all there is. Dire

>>81513668
Yeah nts get fucked up to have fun it's just a bonus for them. Non nts get fucked up to escape their pathetic existence/inherent nature.

>>81513574 (OP)
Keep binge drinking everyday until it almost kills you. Your default personality will change a little bit, but this process takes decades and it might just be me growing up but im gonna keep going to see

>>81513574 (OP)
>I'm also extremely high inhibition and shy
Congratulations, this isn't what it means to be an introvert, and it probably isn't even your personality. It's just your learned response from trauma.
You have no idea who you are.

>>81513712
Sounds really retarded. I did this for a while and just ended up embarrassing myself multiple times.

>>81513740
>It's just your learned response from trauma.
You have no idea who you are.

Yeah it's weird you pointed that out because I'm constantly asking myself who the fuck I am.

>>81513764
It's not really weird at all that I pointed it out, you literally said it in your post. Your thoughts leak through your words. Even if you don't realize it.

>>81513574 (OP)
iktf
it would be completely ok as a woman but as men its a yick

>>81513574 (OP)
same. turned sober after a breakup after being an addict for nearly a decade. completely changed who i am. i feel like the mute weird kid in school again, except i'm 25 with wrinkles and shit so it's just creepy now. i used to be very expressive, charming, and warm. it's completely over

>>81513864
>after a breakup
go fuck yourself

>>81513795
Lmao yeah. Us shy dudes are fucked no matter how much women meme about us.

>>81513574 (OP)
All that time I spent smoking and drinking and being a chatterbox, would have been far better spent developing my skillset.